It was a few
weeks after my sister's death. A
friend of hers had told me about telling my sister before she died to let her
know when she was at Heaven's Gate. She
was talking to my sister out loud and said she was supposed to tell her when she
was at Heaven's Gate, but she did not. At
that moment, she said a song telling her just that came on the radio.
When she told me about this experience, I got angry.
I was angry because I stayed with my sister every day until her death.
I kept trying to read Bettie Eadie's "Saved by the Light(?)" to
her before she died. I was upset
because I wanted to have a visitation with her and felt that I deserved
something. Anyway, that night, I
"talked" to her and told her that I felt that if anyone should have a
visitation, it should be me and that I was angry because I wanted to know she
was alright, also. I was lying in
bed at the time but was not sleepy. My
eyes were closed when all of a sudden, I felt as if someone had sat down on my
bed. Of course when I finally
opened my eyes, I saw nothing. Then,
I felt her caressing my cheek with her fingers like she used to do to her son
and my son when she was putting them to sleep.
That made me feel much better, but I admit I was still apprehensive about
opening my eyes.
But I still
was not satisfied. I wanted to talk
with her. I am very interested in
death and NDE's and had seen a show where they said you can ask a loved one to
come to you in your dreams. So that
night I asked my sister to come into my dreams and visit me. When I went to sleep that night, it was with the intention of
seeing my sister. I dreamed that I
was sitting on a fluffy white cloud just waiting.
Out of the corner of my eye and slightly above, I could see something
coming down. It was my sister!
She was in a white gown and glowing!
She had long, beautiful, wavy hair (all of her hair had come out from
chemo). I have always been able to
lucid dream, so when I saw her, I immediately smiled and said "It worked!
It worked! You came to see
me. I can't believe it!"
Such joy and elation. Then
my sister sat down on the cloud with me and started telling me about so many
things! The problem is, I cannot
remember any of it. It's like I know, but I don't know. All I remember is her telling me at the very end that
"Everything is going to be alright."
And then she floated off. I
woke up feeling GREAT!