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Experience description:  

 MY SON WAS A GOOD  BABY HE WAS VERY PLACID AND REALLY THE APPLE OF HIS MUMMY'S EYE. HE WAS BORN BY EMERGENCY C SECTION AFTER I DEVELOPED A VERY HIGH FEVER AND HE BECAME DISTRESSED DURING LABOR BUT HE WAS OK. THE NIGHT HE DIED I HAD A DREAM THAT HE WAS CLOSE TO TERM AND STILL INSIDE OF ME AND A MAN PERFORMING AN ULTRASOUND ON ME TOLD ME THAT HE WAS GONE' AS IN DEAD. THE DAY OF HIS FUNERAL I HAD BEEN TOLD THAT THEY DON'T PUT BABY'S COFFINS IN THE HEARSE BEING SO SMALL AND DID I WANT TO SIT WITH HIM ON MY LAP IN THE BACK OF THE TOWN CAR AND I IMMEDIATELY SAID YES AND THAT I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO CARRY HIM TO THE GRAVE SITE, I SAID I CARRIED HIM INTO THIS WORLD AND I WILL CARRY HIM OUT. AS WE WERE WAITING FOR THE TRAFFIC LIGHTS TO CHANGE ON THE WAY TO THE GRAVE SITE A WARM TINGLY SENSATION CAME OVER ME RIGHT IN THE CENTRE OF MY CHEST I FELT SO EXCITED AND HAPPY I "KNEW" IT WAS HIM AND SAID SO BEFORE I COULD THINK OF HOW ODD IT SHOULD SEEM TO THE DRIVER. IT WASN'T LIKE PINS AND NEEDLES BUT MORE LIKE BUTTERFLIES IN THE TUMMY WHEN YOU'RE IN LOVE BUT AGAIN DIFFERENT BECAUSE IT WASN'T IN MY TUMMY IT WAS RIGHT IN THE CENTRE OF MY CHEST AND I WAS SO ELATED IT'S DIFFICULT TO DESCRIBE. LATER ABOUT A WEEK AFTER THE FUNERAL I REMEMBER TALKING ON THE PHONE TO MY GRANDMOTHER AND SHE SAID SHE WAS THINKING ABOUT HIM AND SHE FELT A WARM FEELING AS IF HE WAS SNUGGLED UP ON HER CHEST AND SHE SAID TO ME THAT SHE THEN KNEW HE WAS O.K. SWEAR I NEVER TOLD HER ABOUT WHAT I FELT THE DAY OF HIS FUNERAL IN THE TOWN CAR. BUT AFTER HEARING HER SPEAK OF A WARM FEELING I WAS COMPELLED TO TELL HER ABOUT IT.  MAYBE IT WAS HIS WAY OF SHOWING US THAT DEATH IS NOT THE END. I REMEMBER TRYING TO WILL THAT FEELING BACK AGAIN SEVERAL TIMES AFTER THAT INCIDENT BUT I WASN'T ABLE TO. OCCASIONALLY I FELT IT BUT IT WAS ONLY EVER FOR ABOUT A MINUTE AND NOT NEARLY AS STRONG AS IT WAS THE FIRST TIME.

Did you sense an awareness or presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them ?  Yes

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?  Uncertain

     
Where and how were you touched?  NOT SURE IT WASN'T REALLY LIKE HE TOUCHED ME IT WAS A TINGLY FEELING

     
Was the touch familiar?  FAMILIAR IN A WAY BUT ONLY IN TERMS OF THE ELATION I RELATED TO THE FEELING OF LOVE THAT I HAD FOR HIM IN HIS LIFE

     
Was anything communicated by the touch?  NOT SURE I JUST FELT EXCITED AND I GUESS LOVED

     
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in your surroundings at the time of your experience?  NO AND I HAVE NEVER FELT ANYTHING CLOSE TO IT BEFORE

Did you see the deceased?  No
        
How long did the experience last?  BETWEEN 3 AND 5 MINUTES I THINK, NOT LONG ENOUGH FOR ME

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?  THE BEGINNING WAS SUDDEN BUT THE END WAS SORT OF GRADUAL

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:  Experience was definitely real

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?  Uncertain
     
Describe:  NOT IMMEDIATELY BUT AS I TRY TO UNDERSTAND DEATH THE EXPERIENCE IS HELPING ME AS A MEANS OF EVIDENCE OF DEATH NOT BEING A FINALITY