ALL MY FAMILY WAS GATHERED AT MY CHILDHOOD HOME FOR DINNER. I WAS PREPARING MY PLATE WHEN I HEARD MY BROTHER SAY MY NAME. "ADAM". I TURNED AROUND QUICKLY AND HE WAS STANDING RIGHT IN MY FACE. I SAID TO HIM, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE, I DON'T UNDERSTAND."
HE THAN GRABBED ME BY THE ARMS AND WHISKED ME ACROSS THE ROOM. HE THAN ENGULFED ME IN HIS ARMS. I FELT AN ENORMOUS ENERGY BEGIN TO PASS THRU MY BODY. A LOUD BUZZING NOISE ACCOMPANIED THE ENERGY. THE BEST WAY TO DESCRIBE IT WOULD BE ELECTRICITY. IT FELT AS THOUGH I WAS BEING ELECTROCUTED. I SAID TO JAY, "WHAT IS GOING ON, WHAT IS HAPPENING?" HE THEN SAID THESE EXACT WORDS TO ME, "IT IS OK, I AM RIGHT HERE." HE REPEATED THIS ONCE MORE. I SUDDENLY BECAME OVERWHELMED WITH EMOTION AND BEGAN TO CRY VERY HARD.
OVER TO SEE MY MOTHER. SHE WAS LOOKING AT ME LIKE I WAS CRAZY BECAUSE I WAS
TALKING TO THE AIR. I SAID TO HER, "MOM, JAY IS RIGHT HERE, HE IS RIGHT HERE"
AS I POINTED IN FRONT OF ME. SHE BEGAN TO CRY ALSO. THROUGH OUT THIS DREAM I
WAS BEING HIT WITH ENORMOUS ENERGY. I FELT SAFE IN MY BROTHER'S ARMS BUT I WAS
COMPLETELY AT THE MERCY OF HIS UNBELIEVABLE ENERGY. AS I AWOKE FROM THE DREAM I
FELT AS IF JAY WAS LEAVING ME. THE ENERGY SUBSIDED AND I BECAME FULLY ALERT. I
WAS CRYING VERY HARD AND I WAS VERY SWEATY. FOR ABOUT 5-10 SECONDS AFTER I
BECAME ALERT, I STILL FELT LIKE HE WAS IN THE ROOM. MY BODY WAS EXTREMELY SHAKY
FOR ABOUT 15 MINUTES AFTER I WOKE FROM THE DREAM.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? Yes
THE WAY IT PHYSICALLY FELT
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
I FELT A LOT OF PRESSURE SURROUNDING MY BODY AS I AWOKE
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? UNFAMILIAR. IT FELT LIKE GRAVITY WAS COMPRESSING MY BODY
Was anything communicated by the touch? VERY POWERFUL ENERGY. IT FELT LOVING.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? NO
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? NOT SURE, IN DREAM TIME IT WAS ABOUT 2 MINUTES LONG
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? THE BEGINNING WAS SUDDEN. THE END WAS GRADUAL AS I WOKE UP
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
JAY SEEMED MOTIVATED TO TOUCH ME. IT FELT LIKE HE WAS RESTRAINING ME. I THINK HE WANTED ME TO FEEL HIS ENERGY.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: BECAUSE OF THE ENERGY I FELT, AND THE PRESSURE OF HIS BODY WRAPPED AROUND ME
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: SLIGHTLY CONFUSED AND A LITTLE AFRAID. THEN I FELT COMFORTED AND VERY HAPPY
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
I DIDN'T GET THE CHANCE TO HUG MY BROTHER BEFORE HE WAS KILLED. HE HUGGED ME VERY TIGHTLY IN MY DREAM.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? THE BEST PART WAS FEELING MY BROTHER. THE WORST PART WAS FEELING SAD AFTERWARDS
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
I AM NOT GOING TO WORRY ABOUT DYING ANYMORE
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
THEY ARE VERY POWERFUL. AND I THINK THEY ARE TRYING VERY HARD TO CONTACT US
What emotions did you feel during the experience? SADNESS, HAPPINESS, CONFUSION, WONDERMENT, AWE
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
I FELT THE LOVE HE HAD FOR ME. IT WAS AMAZING
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain
I SEEM TO GET A LOT OF SMALL SIGNS FROM JAY.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
THE WERE AMAZED AND COMFORTED THAT MY BROTHER IS ABLE TO CONTACT US
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN TO ANYBODY HOW MUCH POWER AND ENERGY I FELT.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes