I don't remember everything he communicated to me since it was so long ago but there were some big things that still stand out. First thing I asked him was if I could see his death. He showed me in vivid detail, I could see him in the room where he died, I was above him in the top corner of the room watching his death take place. After the funeral (which was after the dream) I arranged with his father to pick up some of my things that Ryan had had at his father's apartment where he was living and where he had also died. I was very curious to see if the blood stains location matched the spot of death in the dream. Before we (I brought two friends who were close to us for support) I told them about the dream and exactly where the blood stain would be, and sure enough, there it was, exactly where it was in the dream.
He also communicated with me a message in words to remind his mother of an occasion that only him and his mother knew about and also to tell her that he was ok, I called her and told her the next day and she was in shock and in tears and very joyous because only he and her knew. She also told me about a few dreams that she and her 2 year old daughter had about him.
Then in the
dream he told me he had to go and that he loved me. He got up, went to the door,
turned around and looked at me lovingly, he told me he loved me and we hugged,
then he told me not to follow him. He opened the door and left it open about a
foot, I peeked through and saw him walking down a dark hall, at the end of it
was a very bright light, he disappeared into it. I wanted to got through the
door and follow him but I knew that I couldn't, that it was impossible and that
if I did it would have consequences. So I grabbed the knob and pulled the door
shut, I walked across the room upset and desired a cigarette and then the
cigarette appeared in between my fingers like magic, I then reached into my
pocket and there was a lighter, when I was about to light my cigarette I woke
up. I looked at my hand and there was no cigarette, it felt so real . . .
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I heard his voice.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? the voice was external and there was another type of communication from the deceased that was more telepathic in nature.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? The was exactly what it was in life.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? no
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
i was hugged.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? it felt familiar, it felt like I was being hugged by him in life.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Did you see the deceased? Yes
He was wearing the same clothes that he wore in life, he appeared the same as he did in life.
How clearly did the deceased appear? solid
How much of the deceased did you see? all
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? he appeared to be the same age as when he died.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? He looked the same healthy young man that he was.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes
What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell? he wore jovan musk every day and he smelled like it.
Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar? it was familiar.
Was anything communicated by the smell? no
Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
How long did the experience last? the dream felt like an hour
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? the beginning and end felt sudden.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? yes, he gave me a message to give to his mother, it was an experience that only they shared and something no one else knew about but I cant remember exactly what it was.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I felt it was real because of the validity of the information that I received.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Uncertain
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I felt confused, and calm, and I was quiet, and at times sad.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
I felt better about his death and I was happy to know that he's ok.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best was seeing him and knowing that he is ok, the worst was not being able to go through the door and be with him.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Describe: I value life more, I'm working hard at school, I've made a complete change in paths and I am determined to have success because I've realized that life is short and should be values and not wasted and that's what Ryan would like me to do.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
I believe in life after death now and possibly God.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
Well the different form of communication was very interesting and has lead me to research it and learn more about telepathy, I might have never known much about it if it wouldn't have happened in the dream. Also the white light is very intriguing, Im curios about what it was, was it God? was it a spirit guide? an angel?
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? Yes
A few times when we were together when he was alive we talked about ghosts and how if either of us died we would hang around each other and someday be together after death.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes
Yes I verified the story that he told me about his mother with his mother.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? confusion, sadness, aggravation, calm.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain
I discovered telepathy and saw the light.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
I've had more dreams about the deceased.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? Yes
I felt like the white light may have been a being.
Did you see a light? Yes
The white light at the end of the hall.
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others?
His family members were delighted, and they shared a few dreams that they had about him too, his aunt thinks that we are soul mates after I told her.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes
When I had food poisoning I floated about my body for a very short period.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes