was writing Christmas cards with the shopping channel on tv in the background. I
heard a split second of static noise, then my son called 'Mum', as if from far
away, like tuning in to a distant radio station, then static again. I jumped
slightly, then turned in the direction of the noise. As I turned back, I looked
at the television and saw no reaction from the presenters of the live program,
so the noise did not come from there.
How long did the experience last? 2 seconds
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Sudden
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Uncertain
He sounded quite neutral.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? No
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was probably real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I find it hard to believe in the possibility of after-death communication.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I was writing cards and keen to finish to get them posted. I had photocopied a sheet with updated news of events to commemorate Stuart's life over the past year and was feeling nostalgic, but happy, as I was also thanking people for their kind words of support the previous year
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? No
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was hearing Stuart's voice sounding strong. He was 6ft 5in tall and he sounded just as he did when running down the stairs from his bedroom and out through the hall.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain Describe: It has changed in that it is constantly at the back of my mind. There is no answer to what has happened, and it will always be a mystery
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Uncertain Difficult to say as it feels so absurd to believe in life after death.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Uncertain Uncertain, as although it felt real to me, is that not what people who hear voices always say? It is frustrating as there's nobody in this world able to give me answers to solve this mystery!
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt stunned and was unable to process what had happened. Then I felt thrilled and elated for a week. I told a few people. Then I felt worried and slightly ashamed as surely this cannot happen. Now I feel quite defensive as it felt so real. I don't know what to think and I'm worried, certainly not about my mental health, but is he happy where he is. Even thinking that feels completely foolish.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain
Although I was stunned, I was thrilled and felt sure my son was trying to tell me he was okay, but these initial impressions quickly wear off when faced with sceptical people and the feeling of absurdity.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? No
Did you see a light? No
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes I felt they were humoring me.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? Yes
I put the basic outline on a Welsh website.
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No
Some of the questions on belief were difficult for me to answer.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. 'Believed it not likely to happen' and 'Believed it probably could happen', and similar questions: A midway answer of 'May happen' would better reflect my opinion. Thank you for this opportunity to type it all out to researchers who might believe me!!