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Allison L's ADC

Experience description:  

I was walking on a sidewalk that was newly paved...smooth and still being paved as I was walking on it. It was surrounded by water. I walked until I reached the point where it was still being paved and I couldn't walk any further, so I jumped across the water to an old sidewalk. This sidewalk was rough, battered, dirty, and broken...but still together enough for me to walk. As soon as I started walking on this sidewalk Amy was walking beside me. She didn't say a word to me, but it felt like we were having a friendly conversation...just like we used to. After walking a while Amy stopped and looked at me...she was happy, and although she didn't say any words, she somehow communicated that she wanted to get into the water. I don't know why I let her, but I helped lower her in the water. When she was almost fully in the dark water, I held her shoulders and looked in her eyes saying, "Amy, I don't know about this...the water is dark, I don't know what's under there, I don't want to let you go in there."

(Amy grew up in a difficult home through her childhood...so no one saw her truly happy that often).....so, when I looked at her and saw the smile on her face and in her eyes, it was the happiest I had ever seen her in my life. It was almost a peaceful, reassuring smile.

Amy didn't say anything, but I heard God's voice. While I was holding her above the water God said to me, "Allison, don't you trust me. You don't know what's under there, but I do. Trust me to take care of her. Let her go." 

And I did. I watched her head go under the water, silently and peacefully.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   I heard God's voice so clearly and comforting. It seemed he was speaking through Amy's eyes while her and I were walking.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  The voice was outside of me...God was above me speaking to me.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           NR

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           God...I knew the voice was God's

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

She looked happier than I had ever seen her.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Very clearly...solid.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       All

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       Same age...15

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Very healthy, almost angelic she looked so beautiful.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        Half hour

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         no

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

She was so perfect, so calm, so overjoyed and understanding. She seemed to know something I didn't, but she was trying to communicate that thing to me through her happiness.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          When I woke up I felt so reassured. I know that God used this dream and Amy to reach me. You don't forget an experience like that, because you feel it in your heart.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Unsure, worried, afraid

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I knew it was okay to let her go. I knew God had her in his loving tender arms.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best: I got to see Amy truly happy. I have a new understanding of life after death, and I got to hear from God so clearly.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
   Yes     I knew it was okay to let her go, and I was able to eat and sleep normally again.

I also realized that sometimes you travel down that new path, that new life so quickly and then something tragic happens which brings you back to that old path. Sometimes we need the old to help us grow and walk further down our path of life and understanding.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     I knew there was life after death, and I believe we can't be selfish and want the dead to be back here with us. It was her time to go, but when you're so tied up in the situation and it's someone so close it's easy to forget that understanding. This dream brought my beliefs and understanding back to me.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            calm, reassured, and happy for Amy

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

It felt as if these sidewalks were my life. The newly paved one is my new life as a first year student at college, and the old one is my life back in Wisconsin with all my old friends and family. I traveled these paths quickly and could see my sidewalk continuing. Time seemed to stand still though through the dream.

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     It brought tears to their eyes. I felt I needed to share it with her family and some friends because I was positive she was happy and with God. It provided so much comfort for those that heard it.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Uncertain 

My other friend Tasha was killed in the same accident. She was my age and we were really close too. Tasha visited me in a dream too, but I awoke before any closure was put to the dream. I woke up in fear and confusion and have not had a dream with her since.

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes