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Experience description:

My first experience was at home in bed and I was awakened when my husband came, undressed and laid down beside me in bed.  He took of his slacks, which were kaki's which he often wore as a young man before we were married, and I remember seeing his belt which was worn near the belt holes.  He laid them at the bottom of the bed.  I fell back to sleep, and later he was standing in front of the bedroom fireplace where I had a number of books that I was recently reading, and it seemed that he was pointing to them.  I could not see him in any detail; he seemed to be a bigger than life shadow.  I tried to talk with him, but he did not answer and just seemed to point to the books on the mantle. 

My second experience was while visiting a friend in Florida.  Earlier in the evening while watching TV, a large water bug walked across the floor and my friend killed it.  That night I was awakened by the sound of something walking across the floor coming towards my bed.  I thought at first that it was a very large water bug, and I turned on the light, and there was no bug and the experience ended.

When I returned home and in a taxi from the air port, I had a feeling that I should ask the cab driver to turn around and return to the terminal, but I did not.  The next day I got a call from the air port that they found my brief case by the baggage claim turnstile, where I must have left it when I picked up my checked luggage.  I did not realize that I was missing the brief case until I received the call.

Subsequently, I had several other experiences that included my cat, Mittens, who died a week after my husband.  I would hear scratching in the litter box that had been kept in the adjoining bathroom, and then I would hear her coming out of the bathroom across the floor to the bedroom, and I felt her jump up on the bottom of the bed, which was her habit when alive.  Of course the litter box was no longer in the bathroom.  After awhile, it seemed that she come through the wall from the bathroom into the bedroom, rather than from through the bathroom doorway.

During the following several months their visits were always preceded by the scratching noises and feeling the depression of her landing on the bottom of my bed.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   I only "heard" the sound of litter box scratching and what seemed liked foot steps across the floor and I felt the depression on the bed from what seemed like the cat pouncing up from the floor to the bottom of my bed.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  I heard no voices just the sounds as described above, and just had a sense that I should return to the airport terminal.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           The sounds from the litter box, which had been removed, were similar to those of the cat when alive.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

           
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

I only experienced my husband as a somewhat larger than life dark shadow.  I never saw my cat, physically.

           
How clearly did the deceased appear?            I did not see my husband clearly, but just as a larger than life opaque, dark shadow.  A bit taller and wider.

           
How much of the deceased did you see?       I only saw some of his garments, like the kaki slacks and the worn belt.

           
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       The cloths were what he wore as a young man, but the deceased did not appear clearly enough to tell age.  The belt seemed to be one that was well used.

           
How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Could not make such a determination from the shadow.  I wondered if he appeared as a shadow because he had been cremated.

           
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         The beginning and end seemed to occur suddenly, last for a relatively short time and then was just over.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          I can only say that what I experienced was real, and I can still recall them, unlike most of my "dreaming".

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           The first time I had an experience I was somewhat startled, and the experience was ended, abruptly, so when additional experiences occurred, I tried to remain calm and still.  I felt not fear.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Uncertain

I am unsure if I could say I experienced emotional healing.  I still miss my husband and tears are in my eyes as I try to answer this question.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      My husband died 12-11-87 and the recollections are now old.  I still am brought to tears in thinking about it all.  But I cannot divide it into the best and worst.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            No

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I did not experience fears, and was thankful that I did experience what I did.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes, They did not seem to have much to say, but found my experience interesting.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes