The first experience I had was about 3 years after my Auntie had died, I loved her very very much, as a child I was scared of dying but could not talk to my mum about it and always wished I could talk to my Auntie as I knew there was something in her that would make me feel better but she lived far away and when we did see her all the family was there and there was not really time for a conversation about it, she died and I grieved for a long time for her. Anyway about a few years later I was working in an office as a office JR but I was suffering from mild depression at the time, that day I snuck off to the bathroom at work and sat on the toilet, and I had a thought a comforting on that if my Auntie was in heaven she would be looking after all the children there as this happened the circular mirror on the wall swung 3 times and just stopped, I couldn't believe it, I felt like this was a sign from her, not to worry and that she was in heaven even though leading up to that point I had lost all faith, I did get a bit freaked out as I started contemplating eternity etc but that is just how my mind works and it does give me comfort to know she is ok,
also around that time in days after I kept hearing the song Cher-Do you believe in life after love but when I was little I thought the lyrics were do you believe in life after life, I also took this as a sign.
My second experience
was when I was about 19, so about 5 years after her death, I have never dreamt
about my Auntie since she died, apart from this one night, I dreamt I was going
to the hospital for a breast exam but somehow I knew I had breast cancer and my
mum was there but it was I could feel my aunts presence completely and she was
warning me I would get breast cancer if I did not quit smoking. I really felt it
was her I have never dreamt about her since.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Uncertain
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? Yes
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? a few seconds
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? it was as soon as I thought about her being in heaven and ended very sudden as well
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? No
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I saw the mirror swinging, I have never hallucinated something like that happening, I know it was real
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I felt quite shocked and surprised and happy, it was a confusing that this happened to me as I had heard of people getting signs but I just pegged it down to them as being a little nutty, but now I know this is not the case at all.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain
What was the best and worst part of your experience? That our loved ones try to give us signs.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes A thirst for knowledge.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Uncertain I have had more experiences after this that would make me believe, such as an OBE (out of body experience), I learned reiki level 1 which is energy healing and I have had strange coincidences. I do believe a lot more now in something than I did before even though I don't fully understand.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Excitement but fear of the unknown.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Some people have said it could just be a coincidence but I don't know how a heavy mirror just suddenly starts swinging on its own in toilet with only me in it.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? Don't just dismiss things that are weird, as it can help others understand or find comfort and also for yourself it can open doors.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes
I had an OBE and I was shot through a tunnel well it was like a tunnel it is hard to describe and there was golden light at the end, I was shot out and I was in this beautiful golden room, to my right I could see a brightly lit city it was so bright it is hard to explain, around the room I was in smooth shapes were moving in and out of existence and there were beautiful patterns on the walls and floor in red and gold, I felt not scared of death at all, I had no sense of time either it was like real but in one moment, I was blissful also, I had the feeling to laugh as I felt so free, I only got scared when I really thought I was dead and couldn't get back to my body, but as I thought about my body I slowly came back down but I felt elated and giggly, I will never forget this experience
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
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