Angelique G's ADC

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Experience description:  

A few friends and I were mourning the loss of our friend who had committed suicide as he was really depressed and felt because he was the nephew of the serial killer Charles Starkweather he was afraid the "killer " gene would be passed down - and complained of it often. (I had a feeling it would happen as I have predicted other deaths in my family and otherwise. Upon hanging out with him I notice a "light" had gone out in his eyes and we found out later he was really depressed but he kept it to himself. But that is a whole other story)

We were standing and sitting in the front yard next to my friend Nana's car that had a couple windows and a sun-roof open. It was night time and no one wanted to be alone after the funeral. We were in her drive way. She put on the CD that he had been listening to (Obsession on Twist of Shadows by the band Clan of Xymox). 

We were quiet and contemplative, and I looked in the sky and saw in angry red face that was yelling and had no sound. Before I could contemplate whether I had hallucinate the face or not , a "boom" happened and shook the car opening all the doors simultaneously. This shoved my friend Shelbie forward , who was facing me and she looked into my face. At that moment something extremely cold passed through my body. It felt as if this coldness had pass through every cell. It was not pleasant at all. 

Shelbie who was watching me remarked that I turned completely white and that my eyes dilated. I gasped for breath and yelled "turn the radio off!" After a couple minutes Nana reached in and turned off her stereo. I said "he wants us to forget him" not knowing why.

Later that night our friend John called in a panic that he had had a dream about an angry red face he recognized as Chris's yelling " Leave me at peace, forget about me!"

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?  Yes
Describe:  Just the boom of the car being "shook"
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?  Yes

Where and how were you touched?  He went "through" me.

Was the touch familiar?  Unfamiliar. It was cold, it went through every cell, completely through.

Was anything communicated by the touch?  It was meant to shock, he was angry.

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in your surroundings at the time of your experience?  No. I have never felt anything like that ever. Nothing in this world could feel that way.

Did you see the deceased?  Yes

Describe the appearance of the deceased:  His face was distorted by anger and was red.

How clearly did the deceased appear?  Solid but up in the sky.

How much of the deceased did you see?  Just his face.

Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?  He appeared to look the same as he did when alive.

How healthy did the deceased appear to be?  He had thinning hair. It looked the same.

Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in your surroundings at the time of your experience?  No.

How long did the experience last?  Less then a minute. It was like a blast.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?  It was sudden. Like a blast.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?  Very, VERY ANGRY.
Describe:  Very, VERY ANGRY.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  He wanted peace. He sought it in killing himself. I did not know previously that he was so troubled. I felt it then and that we were disturbing his piece and if we kept mourning him it would hold him here and he wanted to leave.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:  Experience was definitely real

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  Scared to death, and then determined to follow and respect his wishes and to tell the others to do the same.

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have:     
      Other Attitude or Belief
          It made me feel special.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?  Yes
Describe:  Yes I understood him better, but it has taken years to heal.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes
Describe:  I have a unique (as I have found so far) relationship with death . Before Chris died I had been with my Grandmother when she passed, held her. After that I started "sensing" when someone close to me was going. The closer they are the bigger the signs. I will be looking towards the sky and see a ray of light cutting through the clouds. This will be accompanied by a "gut-feeling". After Chris's passing the phenomenon stopped (It started when I was 9 after my Grandmother's death) and returned a week before my best friend's death in Nov.01.

The experience with her I will have to fill out another form.

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?  Yes
      Describe:  I had Overdosed 3 times when I was 14, and 19. I don't remember anything remarkable happening other than I came back and didn't stay dead.

To the best of your knowledge, did the deceased, during their life, ever have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual experience?  Yes
      Describe:  He "heard" the dead.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  Uncertain
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Yes
Describe:  Yes, I have seizures so I often do.

Did you see a light?  No

      Describe:  I see blackness, sometime colors.

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?  Yes

      Describe:  In the past never. It is only blackness, Lately I have seen a "blue" man and little pointy creatures.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  I would come back with phrases about " the meaning of life" concerning the " threads of reality"

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Just the ones described above about death, but that didn't start with the near death experience.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  More respectful of diseased person knowing they are in a fragile state after death as the change is often very scary and difficult for them. I felt that I should find a way to assist or advocate for those who can't speak for themselves anymore.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  It " haunts" me a bit. I am more spiritual now. Thoughtful. Study more about Death and spirituality.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Some are spooked. All believe me. Most are very supportive and have told me I have a gift, albeit a hard one to deal with. My family ask me lots of questions and feel that they can talk about their fears of mortality with me.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  Yes
      Describe:  Only once to see why I have these "gifts". No answer came. This is only the second time. I have reached out.

What emotions/feelings did you experience following your experience?  Sometimes overwhelmed. But a sense of responsibility.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  That I know when people are going to die, and I cannot prevent that. I feel that they have decided it before they were born. It relieves me that it is their choice and that I appreciate what time I have with them.

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?  Not that I can think of at the moment.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?

      Describe:  I feel wiser.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes
      Describe:  Pretty much.