It was early in the morning and I was on hold with my doctors office and I heard my 4 yr old having a nightmare.  I ran upstairs and he was asleep and crying saying I should have kept my eyes on the road, I should have kept my eyes on the road.  I know that was my nephew speaking through him, because not long before his death I told him that my son reminds me of him. My nephews birthday fell on thanksgiving day that year and our entire family celebrated his birthday at his gravesite.  We rented a helium tank and sent messages in balloons to him.  Blue was his favorite color and we had two balloons on his grave and after we let them go we all took a family picture in front of his grave and all the sudden both balloons popped at the same time.  We knew he was there and wanted us to know.

They say it gets better with time, it hasn't with me.  I still have the shoes he died in, the broken watch he was wearing and the crused new cigarette pack he had in his pocket.  The day after his accident when he contacted me through my son, I felt relieved to know he didn't take his own life.  I know he took his eyes of the road, probably texting or changing the radio.  I don't know, but I truly feel in my heart he took his eyes off the road for one second and that was it. When my son was dreaming he was crying and saying over and over "I should have kept my eyes on the road".  My son was barely 4yrs old, he didn't know how Lil' Ronney died.  He didn't know he was in a car accident. He was talking in first person. I took a leave of absence from work because I was an emotional basket case, I was upstairs in bed crying and telling him I was sorry and how much I missed him and all the sudden my bed side lamp went off and then the other lamp on the other side of the room came on.  I know that was his way of telling me he was there.  My mom was recently diagnosed with a brain tumor.  He just contacted her and his sister by calling out my mothers name.  They both heard it loud and clear.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

I know what I heard and I believe he wanted us to know how his accident happened.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Uncertain

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Uncertain

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  no...

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

I saw him in my dream, he didn't say anything he just looked at me and I said please don't go and he smiled and turned and walked away.  He had a funny design cut in his hair.  When I woke up I felt happy and peaceful.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            solid, but standing in the background

            How much of the deceased did you see?       all of him, down to the hair design in the back of his head.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       He appeared to be the same age, but happy, healthy

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            healthy and happy

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           I sometimes smell cigarettes.  No one in my house smokes.

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     yes, cigs

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   no

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        no

How long did the experience last?        This has been going on since he died.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         gradual

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Uncertain

He just look content

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           Too many things have happened and witnessed.  I know what I heard and saw.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No       

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           sad and grieving

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I know he was telling me he's ok

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      I wished I could have talked with him, asked him questions.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     this wasn't the first time I was contacted by a deceased loved one.  I know they can and will communicate when the time is right.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            scared, confused, sad

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

It was at the funeral home, I had to identify his body while his family was outside waiting.  When I walked out to tell them the wind started blowing and a slight sprinkle of rain fell over us as we all hugged and cried with one another and it was clear sunny day. I know those were tears from heaven.  Several of us have been visited by him.

Have you shared this experience with others?      Yes    

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       nr

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Uncertain