My collie, CJ died on 8/16/02. We had just lost a dog 3 weeks prior in an accident. After she died, CJ seemed to give up and died peacefully at home with us. We were devastated! When we buried him, there was a yellow & black butterfly that lit on a cedar tree beside us and watched the whole process - digging the hole, burying him, etc. Flew away when it was over with. Next evening we heard this high pitched bark at the door (that CJ only did when he was glad to see us). We looked outside only to find our other dog sound asleep on the porch. Next morning, the same thing - CJ's high pitched "happy" bark - looked outside and again, the other dog was sound asleep.
CJ died and was buried on Saturday - The barking started on Sunday and happened again on Monday.
work a yellow & black butterfly flew in my office and landed on my desk. I
almost lost it because there are no flowers - no nothing near our building that
would attract a butterfly. It was so freaky that if I hadn't had a witness, I
wouldn't have told anyone.
On Wednesday, my husband was leaving his terminal (in an 18-wheeler). A yellow & black butterfly flew up to his window and fluttered by his side. It stayed with the truck by the window until he pulled out of the parking lot and onto the highway. It was really starting to freak us out by now.
CJ was our watch dog, and I wondered what we would do now. Thursday night I dreamed that the sheriff dept called me home from my job where they had a would-be burglar in their car. They asked me questions, one of which was if I had a collie. I started crying and told them that I had one, but he had just died. The burglar was cursing in the back of the police cruiser and kept cursing the collie that had jumped on him and had "eat him up" I woke up crying, but not worrying anymore, because I felt like he was still watching over our place.
You can blame coincidence for a while, but after a while you just have to deal with the truth! I'm feeling such peace, but am also pretty freaked out - This stuff is Real!!!
sense an awareness or presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing,
feeling or smelling them ?
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe: My dad's Old Spice
Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar? His cologne
Was anything communicated by the smell? No
Is there any possibility the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in your surroundings at the time of your experience? No
How long did the experience last? 2 weeks
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Your beliefs immediately prior to the experience regarding the possibility you could communicate with the deceased: Believed it could not happen
Your beliefs immediately prior to the experience regarding the possibility of life after death: Believed it definitely could happen
Your beliefs immediately prior to the experience regarding the possibility of existence of God: Believed definitely God exists
Your beliefs immediately prior to the experience regarding your fear of death: Moderately fearful
Your beliefs currently regarding the possibility you could communicate with the deceased: Believed it definitely could happen1
Your beliefs currently regarding the possibility of life after death: Believed it definitely could happen
Your beliefs currently regarding the possibility of existence of God: Believed definitely God exists
Your beliefs currently regarding your fear of death: Moderately fearful
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real
What did you feel (while awake) immediately prior to your experience?
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Happy - confused - a little bit frightened, but also comforted once I realized it had to be real.
What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have: Joy
Other Attitude or Belief
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
Describe: It gives me peace knowing that they didn't cease to exist. Comforting to know that they're still there somewhere.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
Describe: I always believed in God and afterlife, but this solidified it all. With my dog, I wasn't sure how that worked, but am certain that they're all around as well. I trust in God more than ever. I can see that even when the body died, the spirit and love doesn't die!
Have you ever made a death compact? Yes
Describe: My husband and I have always said that we would try
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No
To the best of your knowledge, did the deceased, during their life, ever have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual experience? No
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No response
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
Describe: Attitude changed to complete trusting in God - that He is there and that my love ones are there also. It deepened my belief
Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices? None
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
I only shared with my husband (who also experienced it) I guess I feel that
others will just give me that knowing look that says, "Yeah, right"
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? Yes
Describe: I read on a web site (uncertain which one) where a guy was mourning his dog and was wondering if it was ok - I responded to him via e-mail and told him about our experience with CJ = hoping to make his grief a bit lighter
What emotions/feelings did you expereince following your experience? Happiness - a little confusion - a little fear.
reluctant to believe it was actually them at first.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? No worst - The best is knowing that they are still around
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? No - just glad to have found you. Someone I can share this with who won't think I'm nuts.
positive it happened - I'm positive they're with us
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes