Azizah M's ADC

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Experience description:

it was the summer of 2002. me and my family were in Queensland, Australia for the holiday.   We made our mind that tomorrow we will visit the biggest shopping  mall in Australia which is called the Pacific.  While I was asleep, to my surprise, I saw myself walking in the darkness at four in the morning.   The weather was icy cold, the wind very cold because Australia's winter is in July.  

I saw my deceased mother who died five years ago. I waited for years for a contact but it never came and today all of a sudden, there she was.  She was wearing her same clothes that I am used to see her in (the covering dress of Arab Muslim lady )  We walked along for some time.  I was doing all the talking and the questioning. I waited for response but ..nothing, no word, no expression whatsoever.  All of a sudden, the road took a turn and I realized that we are now entering the big hall of a movie theatre.  We were in the lobby where you buy popcorn and other food.  She stopped and pointed to the fridge where they kept the ice cream.  But it was locked and everything was closed.  I woke up feeling bad not knowing what she wanted.  I wondered if it was hot where she was now.  She was a very religious woman who prayed a lot.

The amazing thing is what happened the next morning. I guided my family into the shopping mall, through all kind of twist and turns between the shops until we came to the movie theatre where I saw that ice cream machine.  To my family's surprise and amazement.  The little kids ordered ice cream, but I didn't have the heart to order anything since I know she wanted this last night and couldn't have any.

a year passed now and I still remember it like yesterday.  she never made another contact though. God have mercy on her soul

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

I didn't understand why didn't she talk to me verbally. why is she here?  is there anything she wanted to say to me?  why won't she speak up?

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   nothing she didn't speak up at all, only the sound of the wind

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

similar to the way I used to see her when she was living

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            very very much alive and very very physical

            How much of the deceased did you see?       all as if she was alive. even the same calmness she used to have when she was alive

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       she was the same age when she died

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            she used to limp on her leg due to her weight. but she didn't anymore. when I saw her in Australia. she walked normally

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No I don't think so, I am sure of what I saw

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        I am not sure.  I couldn't measure the time

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         gradual and in sequence

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          it wasn't dream this much I am sure of. she was very real. it wasn't like any other dream happened to me. the place, the setting was real the smallest details. I can still remember the names and kinds of ice cream inside the fridge.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I needed a  sign from her that she was happy and o k ..she never gave me this sign. she never answered my questions. I couldn't give her the only thing she pointed to (ice cream )..I felt let down and disappointed, puzzled

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           No

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      at least  I saw her ..even if it would be the last time. at least we spent some

quality  time together. in the calmness of the night. in a beautiful place..

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

            Describe:      made me more curious about life after death I read about the subject a lot more

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes

now I am reading more about spiritual themes. it made me curious because I want to communicate with her

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes

I knew my way in the huge shopping mall. although it was my first time there, all tourists needed a map.  I didn't.  Much to the surprise of my husband and children

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            puzzled. mixed up. disappointed.  let down

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

time no not what so ever but the place was sooo much real

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes, my brother was objective ..he didn't comment much. because he is very religious. and in our religion we are not to dig deep into these things..

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Uncertain 

I have all the near death after effects. but I can't remember any. I know that my mother had a very difficult  caesarian surgery when she was delivering me. but I just can't remember any.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               No

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    thank you, god bless you, you helped me to release some of the anger inside me, and get this load off my back