I just moved  into a new apartment, it was I believe, the third night that I was sleeping there. I was very tired, I was mourning constantly my brother and could not admit that he died. Everywhere I was looking for him waiting for a letter from him. I remember having asked my parents if my brother, before his death, knew that I had to move to Latresne because I feared that he might not find me (as I was convinced that he would come back, that he wasn't dead). My parents replied that "yes" he had known.

Suddenly I woke up, sitting at the right side of the bed, and I saw my brother sitting on the wooden panel that constituted the foot side of the bed (one panel for the head side and one for the foot side). He was exactly as I knew him, wearing jeans, leather jacket, his black curly hair and his big black eyes too, were shining. I don't remember being surprised, what happened was normal. At the same time I saw my husband who was sleeping on my left side, saw the cardboard boxes with clothes that had not yet been put away, saw the wardrobe that had not yet been assembled. My younger brother then talked to me. He explained that he wasn't really gone, that he was fine, that he was happy and that I had to stop crying so much , that I had to continue to live as before, take care of my kids and my husband and that I should consult a doctor, as I was eating almost nothing. I don't know how long this lastet and I don't know if I talked to him. At one moment I was wondering how he could sit on the edge of the panel that was quite thin, maybe 2 inches. I'm certain that he was much  higher up than me.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

At the time nobody mentioned this type of experience, I was scared to be taken for a madwomen or a mythomaniac

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    see question 3

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?       I saw his facial expressions, his mouth moving

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           It was his voice

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           impossible, it was in the night

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

 see question 3

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            He appeared to me as in his normal life

            How much of the deceased did you see?       His complete body, except  his feet and one part of his legs

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       Yes, only 6 month had passed since his accident

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            He was young and healthy-looking and this way  he appeared to me

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           impossible

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           the leather  smell of his jacket

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     completely, during 5 or 6 years he was dressing this way, jeans and leather jacket

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   I had no doubt about the truth of what I saw

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?     impossible, nobody else in my family was wearing leather at the time

How long did the experience last?        I don't know

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         the beginning happened suddenly but I don't remember the end

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

He was sad seeing me so miserable but at the same time I felt that he was immensely happy, peacefull

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           The next morning I woke up in good shape, went to consult a doctor nearby, whereas, before this I did 'nt want to leave the house even not to bring the kids to their new school.

Less than a month later I was fine and had started to work again

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           First an intense relief, then love, a big happyness, yet the scene seemed normal to me

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I was able again to continue a normal life

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      everything was wonderful

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:            I 'm now able to love others better

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     my character has changed, I am more sentimental (feeling), more tuned in to others

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Yes     I know that death is not the termination of life, that there is a world somewhere else, where one day I shall go and where I will see again those that have gone, and since that day this helps me to manage my griefs.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?     N0 response
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I immediately recovered health and joy of life

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

yes, knowing of the continuity of spirituel life somewhere

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

during one year approximately I was able to predict all kinds of events to come, generally serious events

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I cannot explain, I am doubting

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     With my second husband (who recently died), he listened to me, questioned me and finally adhered to my experience. We  often talked about it, yet he claimed himself an atheist at the beginning of our relation, and finally he took it the same way as I do

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            No

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?    more than anything else I would like to contact my deceased husband

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?       Uncertain 

see question 30

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes

I don't see anything to add 

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    It was perfect