Barbara P's ADCs
Mother - in the guest bedroom at my Sisters, I was trying to sleep and was finally getting my eyes closed when I felt a presence. I look up in the dark room and the transparent figures of my Father, Mother, and Aunt Marie, and Grandmother Grace was very clearly looking at me very close to my Mother's side and with a vague light behind them. My Mother was crying and the other were consoling her. I asked what they wanted no one answered just seems to be so close to my Mother crying. I said I love you and I will be fine don't worry about me I need to get some sleep for tomorrow. I don't recall them really talking to me just felt as though they had met my Mother and were preparing to
help her to the next place and she just wanted to say and show me goodbye. I was quite upset that they woke me up slightly and felt bad that I asked them to leave me alone. I drifted off to sleep and they seemed to disappear. I don't really think we had to talk at that time because my Mother seemed to be crying about things she didn't really know until after she died and I had lived with them a long time and it was ok with me. I wish I hadn't been so upset about waking me and the crying and would have said nicer words instead of leave me alone. But I slept well and sometime when I really miss my Mother I see numbers around me that remind me of her. For example, one day years ago I was just praying my Mother was there to watch my son and when I went to the concession stand the children were lined up and the numbers on their shirts were the same as the address of where she lived.
During the evening alone with my Sister who's soul mate had passed. I was sitting Indian style on the parlor floor and my Sister was crying and I felt helpless to her misery I sat still just praying for strength. Then I felt something on my shoulder. I looked toward the windows and my brother-in-law was
Although I could see through him I could also here is thoughts to me. He didn't
move his lips but I heard him say without moving his mouth I have to go I have
something I must do look after your Sister now. Off he went out the glass part
of the door. I was in shock and did not dare say anything to my sister I just
started to cry again with her.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Yes simply because human words do not describe the warmth or peaceful feeling around and within you at the time. Also when I have discussed this with people there always seems to be some feeling of disbelief I feel from them. Even my own Sister doesn't believe what I've said. She thinks I'm just seeing things because I'm that way. These attitudes make it difficult to express and because there is no time or space it is not comparable to human words.
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: With my Mother I really didn't hear words just her crying and felt her sadness.
What I heard were thoughts from the group I had the understanding from them they were with my Mother and taking her with them. She would be with them and their love and warmth.
With my Brother-in-law,
I felt his touch, that's how he had my attention I also heard or felt the words
because he didn't move his lips. He was letting me know to look out for my
Sister and that he had something important to do and had to go right then. The
communication does but doesn't sound like words. It is more like a thought we
put into words because that is what we know here.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? The later, I had a sense of what was said, heard it clearly with my mind not my ears. I felt a warm presence of peace and calmness unlike what we can feel here.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? Similar but more like a echo of thought. Not the harsh sound of words we speak.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No really, no one was with me in the bedroom after my Mother's passing on me and the windows were closed and only a small night light on outside the bedroom door which was closed. I was in the dark because I don't like to sleep with the light on.
With my Brother-in-law.
Only my Sister and I were in the room and she was so upset and crying hard that
she wouldn't have seen or heard anything. In fact I would have not been able to
hear other noise from her home or the neighbors because I was concentrating on
being calm and quiet to assist her distress.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? None I am aware of
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
I simply felt like someone was there but when I looked I saw more than just one person.
I felt a touch on my
shoulder with my Brother-in-law. I would not have believed that possible but it
was how he could get my attention. I was trying to calm my own self down to be
of assistance to my Sister.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Familiar like a light touch to awake my senses.
Was anything communicated by the touch? No words it just made me look around
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? Not with my Mother only I was in bed nothing or no one else in the room.
With my brother-in-law
my Sister but she was seated across the room and no one else or nothing in the
room was moving.
Did you see the deceased? Yes
The appearance was see through visible but clear. All looked at some point in there life when I would remember them. A healthy appearance as they looked as an adult. They are so clear not like our physical appearance at all.
How clearly did the deceased appear? transparent but with a similar figure to which I can understand.
How much of the deceased did you see? With my mother I mostly saw just from the chest up as they were around my Mother very close and floating.
I saw most of his
figure though transparent he seemed almost whole until he went through the
window of the door then he just disappeared.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? No exactly the age at death but one of a mature age I was familiar with.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? I could not see anything of an ailment all looked transparent and healthy.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No one was capable of creating an illusion. To much grief for anyone to be planning something like that.
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? With my Mother a few seconds or minutes I can not tell because with them there isn't any time they may have looked at me for longer than I saw them.
With my brother-in-law
I looked around and My Sister said about 3 or 4 sentences during the entire time
I saw him.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Gradual as if they seem to float away effortless
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
I could feel my Mother was sad very sad and knew more about me than she wanted to know. She felt sad and the others were comforting her and I could feel and sense all of that. I didn't mean to make her upset I just was tired and emotional at the time and very blunt in my response to them which was out loud in my voice.
With my brother-in-law
he was at peace and not in pain and seemed anxious to get to where he was
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? NO.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: It is my reality. I experienced it now matter how many times I tell myself I didn't. I would like other people to believe but all I can do is talk to them or about it. It is there choice to try to believe. Also some people can just feel the warmth inside me when I am comfortable enough for it to come out.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Uncertain
Well I sleep very hard and do not remember my dream often. Some of the dream I do remember appear transparent. But I was awake and aware with these events and I am not awake or aware when I dream.
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: With my Mother I was tired and felt sorry I'd be missing her. I was strong emotionally and was able to deal with it. She was in a better place and I was
happy for her not to suffer.
With my Brother-in-law,
I was relieved to see he wasn't suffering and that he was pleased with what he
saw there. I did not think he believed in anything while he was alive. Although
he acted out of kindness everyday.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
Personal growth and belief on my part.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Learning not to care if someone else thinks I'm not right.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes Still looking and reading more.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes I know there is a better peaceful place.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No Only with a mental test!!
What emotions did you feel during the experience? With my Mother I relaxed completely and went straight to a deep sleep.
With my Bother-in-law,
I was calmed down and relaxed able to support my Sister's
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain
Since my own NDE I know sometimes about certain things. This is not the same as what I've discussed here.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? Yes With my Mother but I do not know exactly who they are or were.
Did you see a light? Yes Just a glow of the beings. As though they are energy.
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Some are bad reactions, some laugh - so I laugh with them. Others want me to read more books. And some just look at me like thank you.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes