It was a dream.  After her death my mother became a red nebula in the universe which turned into (became) her hand, like god's giant hand reaching down from the heavens to hold my hand to transfer her strong, powerful LOVE energy to me.  The vision of her, a huge, star-like nebula heavenly hand reaching down holding my hand (which reached up in the universe to hold her hand) and feeling the pure essence of my mother and her giving to me, transferring, her love to me

By holding my hand.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:            Telepathic understanding

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  Sense of knowing what was communicated

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

Held my hand

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Familiar.  As familiar as my mother's love. As familiar a my motor holding my hand.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  To transfer her love energy into me.  To give me strength from her love.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  No.

Did you see the deceased?         Uncertain

She looked like a red nebula in outer space, but it was my mother

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Somewhat transparent, but full of color and stars, like photographs of a nebula from the Hubble telescope.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Her hand

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       N/A

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            N/A

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        A few moments

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes  She wanted to give me her love

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was probably real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           It was a dream so maybe it was my wish or imagination.  However, before I went to sleep I prayed for her to visit me, let me know she was ok.  I also felt such unconditional love for her and from her after she died.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes   I was dreaming

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Unconditional love.  A powerful force.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Uncertain  Yes, but it's so beautiful and awe-inspiring that it's almost painful

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best:  ultimate love and feeling my mothers presence.  The awesomeness of it all

Worst: she is not here on earth with me any more

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No                 

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes            Confirmed what I believed

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Unconditional love.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes  Time was irrelevant

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes  We all come from the stars, quantum physics, spiritually, the universe are all related

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  Only to the extent that my hand was able to reach out into the universe to hold hers

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           Uncertain  She was a kind of light itself

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? In the universe, in outer space

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     My psychologist believes it was my mother sending me a message and not just a dream

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No   But my mother had  on two separate occasions

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes