Bonnie M's ADC
was carrying a resentment towards a family member who was judging me concerning
my grief and my relationship with my mother.
I thought I would get it all out on paper and then I thought I would post
it on Facebook (without names). It
was a bitter essay of vitriol and vile language.
After typing it, I hit enter and instead of the hate filled rant being
posted, this was posted instead "Angels are here with us" - my awful essay was
no where to be found. As I looked at
the sentence, I realized it was a link to another Facebook page. When I clicked
the page, I discovered it was about a man who lost his mother and his experience
with a visit from her. It felt like
I was being stopped from posting that and redirected by a message from my mom.
It was a 2 part gift. 1 - a
message from my mom that she was near with angels and 2 - that awful
manifestation of hatred was not posted.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? 1/10 of a second
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? no. it was immediate. It happened before I knew what happened.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? No
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I didn't type anything remotely like that. I was angry and was not thinking of angels or anything nice at the time.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Angry with my family member for presuming to know the intricate and chaotic details of my relationship with my mom and my grieving process.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
My anger is not necessary. I'm letting it go. My mom and I are good.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? BEST - hearing from my mom and having a bad choice turned around for me.
WORST - No one there to witness it
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Describe: I feel I'm surrounded by spiritual beings and that I should not allow any anger to detract from the joy of that knowledge.