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Experience description:

I was carrying a resentment towards a family member who was judging me concerning my grief and my relationship with my mother.  I thought I would get it all out on paper and then I thought I would post it on Facebook (without names).  It was a bitter essay of vitriol and vile language.  After typing it, I hit enter and instead of the hate filled rant being posted, this was posted instead "Angels are here with us" - my awful essay was no where to be found.  As I looked at the sentence, I realized it was a link to another Facebook page. When I clicked the page, I discovered it was about a man who lost his mother and his experience with a visit from her.  It felt like I was being stopped from posting that and redirected by a message from my mom.  It was a 2 part gift.  1 - a message from my mom that she was near with angels and 2 - that awful manifestation of hatred was not posted.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?        No

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No

 Did you see the deceased?         No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

 How long did the experience last?        1/10 of a second

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         no.  it was immediate.  It happened before I knew what happened.

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

             Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I didn't type anything remotely like that.  I was angry and was not thinking of angels or anything nice at the time.

             Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

 Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Angry with my family member for presuming to know the intricate and chaotic details of my relationship with my mom and my grieving process.

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

 My anger is not necessary.  I'm letting it go.  My mom and I are good.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?      BEST - hearing from my mom and having a bad choice turned around for me.

WORST - No one there to witness it

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:            I feel I'm surrounded by spiritual beings and that I should not allow any anger to detract from the joy of that knowledge.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I feel that her and I had/have an understanding and that it doesn't matter what anybody else thinks about it.

 Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Yes     It told me that she is actually with me.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   Yes

 2 days before she died, I said, " Mom.. if you can get in touch with me after, do it.. But please don't scare the crap out of me".. She said, " If I can, I will and I would never scare you"

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Peace.. Elation... a little fear..  I was alone and began to welcome the angels as if I could see them.  As a guest in my home. I curtsied to them.  I thanked my mom.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     My 14 year old daughter and my Aunt Margaret (mom's older sister) - They both believed me completely.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            No

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?       Yes 

When I was little, I told my grandmother that my Uncle was going to die.  He died that night

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes