Bonnie P's ADC

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For the first one of my mom's, it was the day after her funeral, I awoke to the sound of thunder and rain. [Her actually funeral was on July 1st, my eldest son's 12th birthday.] Normally, I would love the rain. But this particular morning, there was no enthusiasm. I got this urgency to look at the open doorway of my room. There, was a formless sparkly ANGEL. It stayed so briefly that I thought for a few moments I was seeing things. I started second-guessing myself. My husband, who is very much skeptical said it was the sparkles from the fireworks the night before. I said NO, I know what I saw...I am pretty sure that it was an archangel of some kind. I know they come to people in time of sorrow or grief. 

The second experience...I was walking through the town of Woodstock, which was her actual hometown, on the first day of school. The date was September 4th, 2002. I had some time and it was orientation day. I had a hundred thoughts going through my mind when all of a sudden I was stopped literally in my footsteps when I heard her voice as clear as day call me...BO-NNNIEEEE...it wasn't like I had her in the front of my mind, but my life was not in order and I was second-guessing myself about my life, wondering if I should even be there, after all I am 35, married with four young children.

It was her voice! Of that, I have no doubt. It really startled me. I stopped and stared diagonally across the street where I had heard the sound come from. All I saw was a couple walking down the street. They weren't looking at me so that I would know it was them. And in actual fact, I knew it wasn't them. But I was looking anyways. I got this very scared feeling in my stomach. I turned back towards the school and made a secret promise with myself to not ever walk alone in downtown Woodstock again!

The next experience came from my praying for two minutes in heaven with my mom. The dream was very briefly, but in it she and I were walking in this beautiful breathtaking garden. There was amazing colors. So brilliant and vibrant. The numbers of flowers was amazing! My mom and I didn't speak any words. What I got from that dream was an incredible peaceful feeling. Which also gave me that feeling. I knew that my mom was at peace without all that pain. But I also am a strong believer that some dreams are just that, dreams. While others like this...are actual visits.

The other dream went like this...

I was at the bottom of this hill. There's a lot of black in this dream. Black like trees in the distance as well. I am at a funeral and it is for my mom. Yet I already know that we've already had her funeral. It is not sad. Nobody is crying. I walk up to this house. I don't know whose house it is. I am inside with my mom. She wants a potato chip. Just ONE. I can't seem to find any. After looking around I find a bag of my niece Taylor's chips and give her one. Then she and I are close to this bed. I hug her and we fall backwards on this bed. The next part of my dream, we are laying on our sides looking at one another. I am rubbing her cheeks saying THANK YOU, THANK YOU. Now, here's the strange part that I am still having a hard time understanding. My mom and I never spoke one single word, so how did I know she wanted one single chip? Not only that, when she and I fell on the bed, there was no weight of her nor I. And when I rubbed her cheeks saying "Thank you, thank you" I felt nothing. I knew I was touching her, but there was no feeling beneath my hands. How can that be? I hope you know the answer to that, because I sure don't.

For Priscilla...the first experience was when I was sitting in my kitchen at the table doing homework. My son who was 11 at the time was sitting directly across from me. All of a sudden, I got this watermelony scent. It wasn't until I smelled it for the second time that I asked my son if he smelled it too. He did not. My first thought was that my kids had knocked over their bottle of L'Oreal shampoo. The green bottle is the watermelon scent. I got up to go to the bathroom to check. I found the door closed and thought it was strange. I surely couldn't smell the shampoo through the door, could I? When it happened once more, I started to wonder. Again my son could not smell it. A day or so before this was when I got a phone call telling me that my friend was in a coma. Talk about weird. Just a couple of weeks, or so before that I had talked to her on MSN and she told me that the doctors had no idea what happened but that they said she didn't need the liver transplant she was suppose to get. She said she was feeling tired but ok. Now, here she was hanging on for dear life.

I prayed to God the night of the phone call. Asking him to please take care of her and that if all medical intervention couldn't help, could she please send me a sign of life after death. I remember thinking at the time that this was probably selfish of me, but I had to ask. That sign I had asked for was a rainbow. Only know I now how common that request is. Didn't know it at the time. Anyways, Friday, October 26th, I get picked up from school by my twin sister and we are at my dad's picking up my kids. My kids come running in the house yelling "Mommy, mommy, come look it's Per's Rainbow" They were so excited. It was one of the most beautiful rainbows I have or will ever see in my life. It was not only the biggest, but the colors were so brilliant.

Anyways, I called a friend about it and she informed me that there was some response from Per just that day or the day before. I can't recall right now. Anyways, she said it couldn't possibly be from her. So I said ok. But early the next morning, my phone rings. Its my friend telling me that Per has passed away. Later that day, another rainbow appears in the sky. As well as in the Daily Gleaner. Of course, that rainbow is shot from the day before in another nearby town.

The last experience was feeling her presence. I was done my shower but I kept feeling that someone was with me. I can't explain it. It's like when you know someone is watching you but you just can't see them. Anyways, I remember thinking that I opened the shower curtain, Per would be there, only I know I wouldn't be able to see her. So I opened the curtain, and I remember feeling spooked a little. I then told Per that I would miss her and that she would always have a place in my heart as a friend. But that it was time for her to go to heaven. And that she was scaring me. I know that spirits do not want to scare people. That is not their intentions. What her intentions were at that time, I do not know. Perhaps now, I will never know. But once I told her to go, I have never felt her presence again. I should tell you also that I had an inner battle at the time of her wake. I kept contemplating about going to her viewing. I decided not to go. I think now its a good thing. A lot of people told me that the makeup that was put on her was way too dark. She was Native American by race but the makeup made her look like a black woman. Much darker than her normal color. Perhaps I was meant to live with the image I remember her with.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

Yes simply because some people do not believe in things such as this.

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?           

Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   For my mom, I heard her call my name.

For Per, I felt her presence and smelled her shampoo

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  The voice of my mom was external. It was diagonally across the street from me.

I only know that she called my name...and because of my state of thinking at the time...I do believe she was trying to reassure me that I was doing the right thing by going to school.

As for Per, the scent of her shampoo was strong and in a matter of minutes it came to me three times. As for me sensing her presence, it was strong, just as strong as the scent of her shampoo.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           Yes, my mom's voice when she called me was how she would have said my name when trying to reassure me if she was here physically.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No. I looked around and tried to find some other possibility. There was none so I am 100 per cent sure it was my mom's voice. There is no other explanation other than I heard her call my name.

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

Just in my dreams, but then again, this is weird, cause I knew I was touching her but there was no REAL touch. It's just too hard to explain. I don't even know if I can.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   unfamiliar. When I touched my mom before, I felt her...her skin, her warmth ness. This time, I touched her, but felt nothing.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  With our walk in the garden, arm in arm...just peace.

With the other dream of me touching but not feeling. I think she knew I was missing the physical part of her, which is why she might have appeared the way she did. Who knows…

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

For my mom Elizabeth, she was as exact as she was when she was here, except more healthy looking, in both dreams.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Very clear

            How much of the deceased did you see?       All of her in both dreams.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       I am pretty sure she was the age of when she died. Although she looked healthier which could have taken years off her appearance.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            My mom had severe heart/diabetes problems upon her death. But in my dreams, if they were present, I couldn't tell. She looked healthy.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           For my friend Priscilla, I smelled her shampoo.

For my mom, no smell.

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     For Priscilla, I first thought the watermelony smell was my kids L'Oreal's kids shampoo...I love the scent of watermelons.

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   I don't recall. I don't think so.

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        No, I first thought it could have been my kids shampoo but am convinced the smell was from her. I have heard of people VISITING family and friends while in a coma just before dying.

How long did the experience last?        I don't really remember. I only know that the smell came back three times.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Probably gradual because the scent came to me three times.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          Because there is NO other explanation

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           For dreams of my mom, I felt relieved and happy. I was probably overwhelmed while touching my mom's cheeks. I was happy to be seeing her again.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

My fears of falling into NOTHING has subsided. I now believe that there is something after.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Everything was great about them...can't think of anything bad or not good about them...I believe everything is a learning experience.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

           
Describe:      A little...I talk to God and my mom more…

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I now, without any doubts, believe that there is life after here. I don't know where we go, perhaps just stay here in another form, but I know it's much better and not filled with any of the hurt and chaos that this earth plane is.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            No

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

I didn't have one with my mom or my friend Per but I do have one with my twin sister and my kids. My twin sister said that we would hear each others prayers and try to answer the easy one. Like have something POSSIBLE good happen.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Happiness and relief. That there is something to look forward to after we leave the earth plane.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Although for the scent of Per's shampoo, my son who was 11 at the time, was sitting directly across from me, should have been able to smell the same scent but could not. Three times I smelled the scent and three times I asked him if he did, and he replied he did not.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

Well, just that with my first dream-like experience, I asked for two minutes in heaven and I'm pretty sure that's what I got.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain

Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain

Just a couple of times, I predicted that something

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Not that I can remember.

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes

I have tried. but for those who don't believe, its

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   Yes

I have shared my stories with my family.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    No, it seems ok to me.