I was awake and felt
something drawing me to it, something like an alpha state... And I found
myself seated in a boat, surrounded by a very clear, blue sea. A feeling of
incredible peace surrounded me. I was very upset by the death of my
father. He had committed suicide a few years earlier and I couldn't
assimilate his absence from my life nor not knowing what had caused him to
do that. At that moment of peace I looked ahead and saw my father smiling
as he was accustomed to do, with that special way of smiling he had, full of
tranquility. He sat down next to me at a table and having him in from of me
I asked him: "Papa, how are you."
He responded, "Daughter, I'm now
OK... Be at peace... Don't cry anymore. I am now fine."
I then said to him, "Papa, may I ask
you a couple of questions?"
Smiling, he said as if already knowing
what I was going to ask him, "I won't be able to answer some questions."
"That doesn't matter," I told him. "I
still want to ask you."
He just smiled.
I asked, "When I die, will you be
waiting for me?"
He said, "That's a long way away for
"But will you be there?"
"Be at peace. I will be waiting there
I said to him, "May I ask you one more
He smiled, knowing what I was going to
ask him. Nevertheless, this didn't deter my anxious question. "Why?", I
asked referring to his suicide.
"I can't tell you that," he said.
Suddenly I felt an blow that returned
me to my body and it was as if I had awaken once again in my bed. I knew it
hadn't been a dream because everything was very real. I was there with
him. I know he's OK. This has left me at peace and accepting.
Was the kind of experience difficult
to express in words?
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
At what time during the experience
were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?
At all times
How did your highest level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness
and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day
consciousness and alertness, please explain:
It was the peace and tranquility of the moment that made me feel my state
of consciousness was superior to normal, as well as the fine details of the
memory that has stayed with me despite the passing years.
Did your vision differ in any way from
your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of
vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes The sea was incredibly clear, the sky was a brilliant blue.
Did your hearing differ in any way
from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability
to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
What emotions did you feel during the
Incredible peace. A sensation that everything surrounding me was in
Did you pass into or through a tunnel
Did you see a light?
Uncertain Everything was very clear...much more so than normal, but no
Did you meet or see any other beings?
Yes My father transmitted peace, security and tranquility to me.
Did you experience a review of past
events in your life?
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified
Did you see or visit any beautiful or
otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?
Yes As I described the sea earlier
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes We have to await our own time in order to really comprehend what it
is like on the other side.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting
physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events?
Yes. And if I really concentrate I can see people who have already died.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal
or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to
Yes I always had a certain perceptual gift, but it has become sharper
since that time. As I said before, I can see people who have died although
I don't do it all the time.
Have you shared this experience with
Months, perhaps a year afterwards. Some believed it was a dream, others no.
I spoke with a priest about my experience and about what I can see and he
told me it was part of my essence.
Did you have any knowledge of near
death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
How did you view the reality of your
experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real I have always viewed my experience in the
same way. I know I was with my father and that he told me he was fine.
Were there one or several parts of the
experience especially meaningful or significant to you?
The whole experience was meaningful to me.
How do you currently view the reality
of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I see it as an expansion of the
knowledge about myself and an advance at the personal level.
Have your relationships changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes My faith has increased and I know that there is another life after
Have your religious
beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes As I said, my faith has increased.
Following the experience, have you had
any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Yes But without medications and with another person in front of me who
saw that I wasn't asleep.
Is there anything else you would like
to add concerning the experience?
I don't think there is anything to add. I have detailed everything that
happened at that time.
Did the questions asked and
information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your