As I was standing in the hospital stat lab, preparing specimens to be run on the auto-analyzers, I had the distinct impression that somebody was standing directly behind me, watching what I was doing, and when I turned around, nobody was there, but I "felt" strongly that my recently deceased dad had just stopped by for a visit to see what it was, exactly, that I do. He was always interested in hearing about the lab work I do and how the instruments worked. After I felt like he had been watching me, my reaction was to smile to myself and think how typical of him, that he would want to come see my work in person, since he never did get to in real life.
Unlike my sisters, and, understandably, my mother, I really did not grieve for my father at all (and wondered if I was somewhat abnormal or cold) but was actually quite happy that he had finally died after a long drawn out illness due to congestive heart failure. I think the one emotion I could say I had was jealousy; that he was done with his life and he got to go on, and we were all still stuck here having to complete our lives.
Was this experience
difficult to express in words?
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? About a minute.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? sudden--the feeling of someone standing behind me looking over my shoulder was sudden
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Uncertain
If I had to guess, I'd say the emotion would have been curiosity.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was probably real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: Well, at the time, I had not been thinking of my father, and was 100% concentrating on my work, so I had done nothing to prompt it, so I think it was a spontaneous real thing that happened.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: just wondering who was standing behind me watching me
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain
I think it made me feel better about my not grieving his death.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Best--the feeling that my dad had come to the lab because he was still interested in what I do. Worst-trying to share with my sisters this little experience because I thought they'd think it was neat, but having the feeling that what I said didn't matter to them.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Uncertain I have always been of the opinion that we can continue to learn after our deaths, and this little experience agrees with my prior belief.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? amusement, thinking my dad had just stopped by to see me at my workplace and see what I do there
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? No
Did you see a light? No
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes My sisters had no reaction; they asked no questions, and I felt they gave no credence to my experience.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes