Carol R's ADC
I have had several ADCs from Tanya. The following is the most wonderful.
Tanya's hug from Heaven
Tanya's Hug from Heaven was the most precious gift ever. This gift helped me so very much. At this time I did not want to go on living. Tanya had such love in those beautiful sparkling eyes. Her smile was incredible. I knew that my baby was at peace and all right. Tanya's hug gave me the strength to go on. Thank you, sweetheart from the bottom of my heart.
My sweet Tanya always gave the best hugs. Tanya would wrap her arms around you and squeeze real tight; she would hold you for the longest time.
After my Tanya went to heaven I longed for one of those hugs. I was going to the cemetery every morning before we opened and every evening after we closed the gallery. Each time I would talk to Tanya and tell her how much I loved her and missed her. I would also say "I would give the rest of my life, give anything for one last hug"
Tanya went to heaven two months before we moved from a rental to above the gallery. Not sleeping much every night I would go into what was to be her bedroom and sit on her bed and look at her portrait that one of our artist lovingly did for me. I t looks just like Tanya and I would talk to her looking at it. Every night and sometimes even during the day I would say "I would give the rest of my life, give anything for one last hug"
The night just before Tanya's 16th birthday I talked with her then went back to my room and sat on the edge of my bed. I looked up and TANYA WAS RIGHT THERE!
She did not say anything but... TANYA'S EYE'S EXPRESSED SO MUCH LOVE! TANYA HAD THE WARMEST, SWEETEST MOST BEAUTIFUL SMILE. TANYA LOVINGLY WRAPPED HER BEAUTIFUL ARMS AROUND ME!
I put my right hand on her left arm. She was cool yet not cold, solid but not quite, my hand did not go through her but it was just so different, kind of like how when you touch Jell-O it's not quite solid.
But it was the texture of her skin that startled me. There are no words to describe what Tanya's arm felt like. I drew a quick breath and then TANYA GAVE ME THE MOST BEAUTIFUL LOVING SMILE. TANYA'S EYES CONVEYED SO MUCH LOVE! Then she just backed away and was gone.
no words to convey what this visit means to me. Tanya is such a loving giving
spirit. I am grateful to have such a loving daughter.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: The very first communication I heard Tanya's voice. But the one I just gave you I did not.
My very first communication I heard her voice.
"Tanya's First Communication"
The angel on this stationary is my sweet angel Tanya. Dona, the artist told me she felt that she had help with this painting. Dona captured her expression perfectly. This expression I saw many times. My first adc came the day that her marker was placed. Her marker came a week earlier than expected and my husband Gary was out of state.
I closed our art gallery at 6pm to go visit her grave before a 7pm private open house with some ladies. I got to the cemetery and Tanya's marker was in place. Tanya's last picture was set in the stone. It was pouring down rain I sat on the wet grass touching her marker and cried and cried. I keep thinking that "It's Written In Stone" We live above our gallery and with the private open house forgotten I drove home.
I'm wearing a silk blouse wet and clinging to me, my makeup running down my face, my hair wet and stringy. The door bell rings, I open the door and there stands a bunch of women all dressed up with shocked looks on their faces. I just said "Oh my god I forgot about you" I let them in, told them I was very sorry. I showed them where the refreshments were and said I would be right back. I ran upstairs to changed my blouse and wash my face. Shocked by what I saw in the mirror I decided that I would show the women Tanya's portrait and explain about the marker.
Tanya's portrait off the wall. Looking into Tanya's eye's I very clearly heard
her voice from within my mind say "Mom you are so retarded" While on this earth
Tanya would often say that when I did something dumb.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? from within my mind
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? NO
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
Tanya hugged me.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
I put my
right hand on her left arm. She was cool yet not cold, solid but not quite, my
hand did not go through her but it was just so different, kind of like how when
you touch Jell-O it's not quite solid.
Was anything communicated by the touch? So much love & I knew she was at peace.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? none at all.
Did you see the deceased? Yes
Tanya looked the same as when she was alive. She was cool yet not cold, solid but not quite, my hand did not go through her but it was just so different, kind of like how when you touch Jell-O it's not quite solid.
How clearly did the deceased appear? Very clear
How much of the deceased did you see? Same as you would see if a live person was standing besid your bed. I did not notice feet but did not think any thing of it.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? Tanya appeared the same age.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? Very Healthy.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? None
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes
What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell? lightly of Freesia
Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar? Familiar. She often wore a light scent of Freesia
Was anything communicated by the smell? Just that it was her scent
Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? None
How long did the experience last? less than a minute.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? She was just their suddenly but backed away gradually.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
Tanya just seemed happy and at peace. She wanted me to know that death does not end the love.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Not in the adc I just described. But latter through a medium she explained that it was truly an accident. There was reason to doubt that.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I have had several ADCs from Tanya. I Know for a Fact that it was Very Real.
My mom wanted me to see a Therapist when I told her about the ADCs. My mom would call me daily saying she would pay for it if I would please get help.
I asked Tanya to please make her stop bugging me about my mental health.
On night my mom woke up to use the restroom. Tanya appeared at the foot of her bed & smiled.
never mentioned my needing a Therapist again.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Elated very happy peaceful loved
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
I feel that Tanya is still close by and at peace. She knows how much she is loved and missed. I know that she has great love for her family.
longer wanted to die right now yet I do not fear death. I know I will be
with Tanya again.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The hug was such a loving gift from my sweet Tanya. It was so wonderful, truly beond words. The only sad thing is that she can not be here every day in this life.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Describe: I feel more peaceful.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes I know strongly believe in "The Other Side"
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes I now believe there is "The Other Side"
that your loved ones are truly close by. I wish that I could have Tanya with us.
I believe that she is alive in a different form.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? Yes
After my experiences with Tanya I made an agreement with my husband that we would contact each other.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes Tanya's best friend Kim remembered a bracelet that was on Tanya's arm at the funeral. I later found it in my jewelry box.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? at peace but still a little on the sad side. I still miss Tanya a lot.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? Uncertain
Not this experience, but my husband and a close friend witnessed communication via the computer.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes Other signs of communication from Tanya
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? No
Did you see a light? Uncertain Tanya seemed to have a slight light around her.
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes My sister thinks I'm loony tunes. My mom thought I needed help until she saw Tanya.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? Yes
For a time I had a memorial site for Tanya with my ADCs posted.
The provider is no longer available. I still have the pages on my computer.
I light a candle, posted a painting of her as an angle & posted a message to Tanya on this site:
anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?
It was the most
wonderful loving intense incredible experience of my life.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No