Yesterday I had to work on my taxes.  Of course, I saw all of the bills associated with Chris death from 2008.  Afterwards, I felt so sad and tired, I began to cry.  I went into his library and touched some of his things, and a picture of him with Rollo.  I cried and sobbed for about 15 minutes, until I felt more tired, and even relaxed.  I allowed myself to stare into the mirror.  I just sat there in front of the mirror and stared, even closed my eyes from time to time.  After a little while I saw a dim face looking out at me.  It was Chris, and he was actually looking at me, this was not like a home movie or a photograph like the previous mirror experience.  His face moved closer, and then receded, always looking at me and smiling, as if to say, Its okay, Celeste, everything will be okay.  Im here for you, I have not really left.  The image of his face moved back and forth several times, and then faded.  I felt comforted afterwards.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

This is how he appeared when he was healthy and alive.  His expression was exactly the one he had when he was trying to reassure me of something.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            dim, sort of transparent.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       chest upward

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       he appeared to be about 40.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            healthy, before he ever got cancer.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        10-20 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         the beginning was more gradual, the way the light seemed to change in the mirror, dark clouds and then flashes of light.  then his face appeared.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

calm, reassuring

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  he was just trying to reassure me that he was with me and that he would always be so.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was probably real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           maybe it was my imagination playing tricks on me with the light and mirror.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Uncertain

I was in a relaxed state, although fully awake.  

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was very happy to see this image of Chris, that looked so alive in his expressions

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

For a time I felt better, and cumulatively, I felt reassured, but the immediate calm after such an experience does not last for more than a day or two.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      only that it had to end, otherwise, it was all wonderful.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain                  Describe:            cumulatively, these ADC have strengthened my beliefs, and actually widened the picture I have of what may lie ahead when we pass on.           

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I felt reassured that Chris' soul was waiting for me.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     Chris keeps showing me again and again that he is here with me, even if not in flesh.  His soul is alive and will always love me and wait for me.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

A few weeks before Chris died I asked him to come back and tell me that he was okay where he was.  He agreed, and on a different day  he said, "I'll find you someday."

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt lucky to have had this experience.  I felt much more peaceful than I had earlier.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Chris soul was somewhere in another dimension.

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           N0 comment

Just some small flashing lights in the mirror.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     some were fascinated

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       I think that this was really Chris looking out at me from another plane.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

several ADCs and many telepathies with  my husband while he was alive.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    1.You need to ask how long the experience enabled joyous, or other feelings.  I feel better after these experiences for awhile, but then grief overcomes me in a few days. 

2.  You should be asking if any other events took place which seem to have a direct connection with the ADC, such as synchronicity.

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

12-27-08

            Chris appeared to me just as I was about to wake up.  His apparition may have been what woke me.  He was standing at the foot of my bed, where I often feel him, but this time I saw him.  He was standing in a background of cloud or mist, and I could see him from the knees up.  He was wearing a blue denim shirt and jeans.  His hair was as he had  worn it just before he got sick again, long enough on the top to comb over to the side.  He was healthy and smiling, and he was not speaking with his lips, but his eyes were saying, Its okay.  Im here for you and I love you.

I opened my eyes and his image was gone, but I knew he had been there, just as sure as I felt Quincys warm little body against me in bed.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

He was standing in a background of cloud or mist, and I could see him from the knees up.  He was wearing a blue denim shirt and jeans.  His hair was as he had  worn it just before he got sick again, long enough on the top to comb over to the side.  He was healthy and smiling.

He was standing with his head slightly to the side, as he smiled.  he often had this mannerism when he was trying to reassure me of something.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            very clear, not transparent, but not quite solid.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       from the knees up

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       No.  He appeared to be slightly younger than when he had first gotten ill with cancer, maybe about 55.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            he was very healthy.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        5-10 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         no, he just appeared in my mind, just before I opened my eyes (but was already awake), and then faded away.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Cheerful, positive, wanting to promote those feelings in me.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  He was telling me again that not only was he okay, but that everything was okay, including me.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was probably real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I felt Chris' presence very intensely, but because I had just awakened, but had not yet opened my eyes, it made me wonder if this vision was not just an illusion.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes

dreamlike, in that he was standing in a kind of mist, and that I was just waking up.  but, prior to this, I do not recall having any dreams of Chris that night.  this was just his image staring at me, and communicating my telepathy.  Chris and I had much telepathy during our marriage together. 

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was happy to see him, and feel his message to me.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I felt much better for having had this vision of Chris.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part was that I got to visit with Chris, and see him as he was whenever he wanted to comfort me.  It was exactly his expression whenever he wanted to reassure me of anything. And that he was healthy, and not the terrible wasting specter I so often think of when I recount the days of his last illness.  The worst part was that it was over.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain                  Describe:            it continues to change the more ADCs I experience.  

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     the more ADC I have with Chris, the more reassured I am that we will be reunited someday.  His demeanor gave me the feeling that it might seem like a long time to me , but that it really was not so long at all.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     He was not only at peace with where he was, but his spirit was alive, and he was still Chris.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

Before Chris died, I asked him to come back and tell me that he was okay.  Another day, he also said to me, as he was crying, "I'll find you someday."

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt comforted for much of the day because of the experience.  the whole Christmas period had been very depressing and lonely for me in general.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain

time may have seemed to stand still, as if Chris were going to be here at the foot of my bed for a long time.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain

Chris may have been communicating that there was a place for his death in the universe, and also a place where someday we would be reunited, and that he was completely certain of this.

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           Uncertain

All I can remember is that he was standing in a mist from the knees down.  I don't think he was illuminated in any way, but I am not sure.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Most people were fascinated, and admitted that a friend or parent may have had similar experiences with a deceased loved one.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       no

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

at least 8 ADC, which I am in the process of sharing with you in this format.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

12-10-08

            I had some sort of a nightmare, and woke myself up by yelling out. I dont know what it was about, but when I opened my eyes, I saw a soft light with a sort of tail like a comet move into the room and hover over me.  It had a concerned face staring down at me for a few seconds, and was gone.  I believe this was Chris, but the face was unearthly.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

this was a very ethereal vision, very much made up of light, and an amorphous shape, which swirled above my head while I lay in bed.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            somewhat transparent

            How much of the deceased did you see?       his face, and a comet like body

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       the face was other worldly, but it looked like a younger Chris than when he died.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            the vision did not appear ill, but ghost like, spirit like.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        about 5-10 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         the second I cried out in my sleep, I awoke, eyes open.  I saw a lighted shape see

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

very concerned about the fact that I had a dream which made me scream.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           because I was fully wide awake when I saw the apparition.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Uncertain

it was an otherworldly being, unlike anything I had ever imagined.                     

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I do not remember what the dream was about which caused me to awake myself by crying out.  it was something I was fearful of, I do remember yelling out, "NO," upon awakening. When I saw the apparition, it made me feel as though I were not alone, and that there was something in its appearance that wanted to comfort me, and not to leave me alone with my fear.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Uncertain

I still felt very full  of grief for his loss.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The worst part was that it was not longer, and the best part was just having it happen, being able to see Chris in this way, looking concerned for me.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:            each one of these ADC has changed my attitude about life, and life after 'death.'  Now I know for certain that there is a realm for our spirits once we leave this earth.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes            This gave me another idea of how a spirit could present himself.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

Before Chris died, I asked him to promise to come back and tell me that he was alright after he crossed over.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt that Chris was trying to look out for me from wherever he was, and that did make me feel comforted.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain

The spirit world is closer than we perceive.  They are there for us, watching closely.

Did you see a light?           Yes

Just the light that was the being.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     I think most people were interested, and many had told me that they knew of others who had lost a spouse and had had similar incidents.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

I have had several ADC, one with my grandfather when in 1974, one with one of my dogs in 2005, and at least 6 with my husband in 2008-9.  I will eventually enter all of these on this website.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes