When I was in my early twenties, I met and fell in love with a man named Joe who 27 years older than myself. We had a long relationship; almost 9 years, living together. As I approached 30, I wanted to get married. Unfortunately, Joe did not want to marry again. After a few splits and reconciliations, I ended the relationship permanently.

On December 13, 2003, this gentleman passed away at the age of 74. I hadn't seen him in 20 years, but the news of his passing was a devastating blow to me. I had never lost anyone I loved so deeply before. I was bereft and deeply saddened. I couldn't stop weeping. I was continually asking for a "sign" that he was OK. I asked God, I asked Jesus, I asked Joe. Nothing. About two weeks after Joe passed away I was driving to work and thinking about him, it was December 27th, his birthday. Back in the 70's, when we first met, "Saturday Night Fever" was a huge movie hit. There was a song from the soundtrack, "How Deep is Your Love?" that was "our" song. I was compelled to say out loud..."If you're OK, play our song on the radio". I turned the radio on and...a car commercial. I kind of laughed at my foolishness and thought I'd finally snapped my cap when "How Deep is Your Love" came on the radio. No announcement, nothing. The commercial simply stopped and the song came on. I had to pull over I was so overwhelmed. I was laughing and crying at the same time. I just KNOW it was him. I could feel him there, all around me; he was happy, I could feel it. It was AWESOME. There is no way that could have been a coincidence. I think he wanted me to know that all was well, we'd see each other again one day and that he knew I still loved him.

It seems impossible, but it was only a month ago I was wild with grief. Now, although I am still very saddened, I feel a sense of relief and comfort. This has strengthened my belief in God and in Eternal Life; and I thank God for those few moments we were together again every day.

Thanks for letting me share.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes, Happiness

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          It was too "perfect" to be a coincidence.  I physically felt warm and had an overwhelming sense of his presence.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Comforted, felt "safe", felt loved, relief.  Was laughing and crying at the same time.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I knew he was OK, my grief lessened considerably

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best was it happened!  The worst was it ended.  I wanted him with me longer.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain

            Describe:      I feel differently, but my life has not been changed.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

Removed all doubt about life after death

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes, Removed all doubt about life after death

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Sense of relief, happy

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

Told a close friend and my mother.  While they were not influenced, neither expressed any doubt about my experience.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   Yes

The "Hello from Heaven" site but they never contacted me.

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       I can't completely describe the feelings I had.  To say I was comforted, relieved, etc is correct but not complete.  It was much more than that.  An awareness I never felt before.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes