My story is the one of the man of my life. My soul mate. On the 5^th of May, a morning like many others. My man wasn't feeling well, I even suppose that he slept in sitting position, as he did since some time, he said that it felt more comfortable. He took his breakfast and called me to tell that he didn't feel good. I ran upstairs to help him. Seeing that he was really bad I called 911, at the same time I saw his lips turning blue. I talked to the employee and she told me to perform massage, as it was evident that his heart was stopped. So I massaged during 20 minutes until the arrival of the ambulance people. But I suspected that his soul left me, as during the massage I saw such an intense light in his eyes, the color of his eyes had turned into a bright green, like the new green in spring. The day following this tragedy, my Norman came to visit me, he was lost and didn't know what to do. I told him that he died and if he was well aware, then I asked my mother to help, as my mother died less than a year before this event. The second day after my Norman transmitted all the love he had to me, this love that I felt was so intense, that it is difficult to find the words to define it.

Therefore for me, there is certainty that there is life after death.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?            Totally

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      Normal consciousness and alertness   Not really.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   A feeling of helplessness  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   My husband

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience  

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience  

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:    I wasn't scared of death, but with all this love, I long to join the light beings and above all my soul mate.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   No  

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes    I'm doing automatic writing

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     I'm searching for the wonderful feeling of love.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  A few days.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   A sense of well-being

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was probably real   Like an indescribable well-being

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I don't see any future on this earth. As a small child I had the impression being on this earth to teach living to people who didn't know how to live. In the last year I suffered three death cases that affected me much. I feel my soul being tired, as if I couldn't take anything anymore. I'm literally a lost soul.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   No   Indirectly concerned

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?    I don't know

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?                    No