morning after his funeral I was in bed, lying on my left side as I often do. I
was just awake when I felt this very familiar feeling of his fingers running up
and down my side like he always did. I then with out thinking rolled and said
out loud "Paul, stop that." At that instant the sensations went away and I
realized that Paul had come to me in his playful five year old to way to let me
know he was okay and that I should get on with things. He came to me in this
manner once more about three months later. He also came to me in a dream
several years ago to show me how he looked now that he was grown.
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
As stated above, I felt small, five year old fingers running up and down my right side as I lay on my bed.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Very familiar
Was anything communicated by the touch? Playfulness and a feeling that things are going to be okay
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? Several Seconds to half a minute in each instance
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? sudden
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
As stated above, playful and happy
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? He communicated to me at another time that he was with his spirit guide Kamel. I was thinking about him and wondering who he was with on the other side. I happened to look into the closet he and I had shared and saw that his spelling blocks were still there (this was soon after the funeral and we had not packed up his personal effects yet). I had noticed a short time earlier that the blocks were just scattered randomly on the floor of the closet. When I looked again just after asking the question as to who he was with, they had been turned to spell Kamel.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I firmly believe the reality of the experience(s) in question due to have already experienced Psychic phenomena in the past.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Having just come from sleep I was slightly groggy and annoyed that my brother was trying to wake me up when I had been through a very trying week and just wanted to rest.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
I had been devastated by the whole experience of the late night vigils in the intensive care area of the hospital, the strain of trying to be the strong person giving others support and a shoulder to cry on when I needed the same thing myself, the experience of having my loved one at the time tell me she was not going to the funeral home or the funeral as the thought of death scared her and she would not even do these things for the person she loved.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part of the experience was knowing that my brother was happy and secure. The worst part was the finality and the reality that unless he came to me from the other side, that I would not see him again until I cross over.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
As I have stated above, this strengthened some already held beliefs.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
These experiences I had after my brothers death (and an NDE I experienced four years later) gave me a much clearer understanding that while life as we understand it ends, there is still something beyond.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? What I felt most was a sense of peace.
Have you shared this experience with others?
The reactions were generally positive. Most of the people I have spoken to about this have also had "other worldly" experiences at sometime in their lives.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes
I have had out of body experiences since I was child. I had a NDE when I was twenty years old and was in the hospital for extremely severe pneumonia. The most notable out of body experience I have had was late one night when I was involved in a serious car wreck. I had my best friend and some other with me. My car was struck from behind and sent careening out of control with the accelerator jammed wide open. We were heading for a head on collision with a telephone pole when I seemed to lose awareness of where I was. When awareness came back, the telephone pole was sliding along the drivers side of the car. Later while talking to my parents about that night they told me they were woken by the sound of two pair of feet running down the hall from the front door and into the room that had been mine before I moved out. We came to the conclusion that since the accident happened about two miles from their house, that my friend and I escaped our bodies and ran to the safest place in the area, which was my old room in my parents house.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
The answers accurately described the experience in that I can still recall in exacting detail what happened.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. Some of the questions seem a bit redundant as they ask for answers that have already been given before. I think the form is a little bit lacking since the questions do not really make any allowance for multiple experiences. You might want to think about adding a question or two about them.