My friend Doug was intent upon taking his own life and he made that clear to everyone around him. He was a gifted yet extremely troubled, angry, sad person. A week after he committed suicide, he visited me. It was early in the morning and I was between being asleep and awake. I remember standing in a bright white fog. I could see someone walking through the fog toward me.
As he came closer I recognized him, it was Doug. He stopped a couple of feet in front of me and smiled. He seemed so calm and peaceful. I said, "Doug what are you doing here?" Then I said, "You killed yourself." Doug responded, "I know." Then he said, "Claudia I've always loved you." I was confused because he had a girlfriend. I said, "Doug what about your girlfriend Sandra?" He said, "That's a different kind of love." Then he put his arms
around me and hugged me. I abruptly woke up. I looked toward the foot of my bed and could see the figure of a very tall man.( Doug was over 6ft) I quickly closed my eyes again and and kept saying to myself "there's nothing there." When I got up the nerve to open my eyes to look again it was gone. The conversation Douglas and I had vas so vivid that I remember every word as if it happened yesterday. This was no dream.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: He spoke to me! He told me that he loved me. This was a very rational logical conversation.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? His voice was coming from him.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? It was Doug's voice only calm and peaceful with no swear words which was unusual. Doug was never that calm in life.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
He put his arms around me and hugged me. I felt loved.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Familiar
Was anything communicated by the touch? He was expressing love and I could feel that.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Did you see the deceased? Yes
He look like he did when he was alive except he was smiling and seemed at peace.
How clearly did the deceased appear? Clearly and solid.
How much of the deceased did you see? His whole body
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? He was the same age.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? He was very healthy. Although he had committed suicide by discharging a revolver in his mouth, there was no wound.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? Maybe 5 minutes total
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? The beginning was gradual but the end was sudden. I woke up fast and was fully aware like it was midday
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Yes. He told me that he had always loved me, which I didn't know.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I remember every word of it. It was vivid as if we standing here talking now. I don't remember dreams like that.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Yes
I was kind of sleeping
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I was confused in the beginning, because Doug was standing there and I knew he was dead. I didn't understand why he told me that he loved me when he already had a girlfriend. I felt loved when he explained and hugged me.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? No
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was being able to see him again and knowing he's at peace. There is no worst part
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
It seems as if after your physical body dies your soul is at peace
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love and calm
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain
I've always been rather empathic
Did you see a light? Yes
It was a very bright white fog.
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others?
I've shared this experience who have lost loved ones and have had similar experiences.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes