Connie S's ADC
In my dream, it was
space, no walls , you couldn't see where it began or ended. It was pitch black
but there was a bright light shining from above on my father. He was sitting
down and we were separated by the same thing you would see in a prison when
visiting. There was a window and a chair for me to sit in so I could "visit"
with him. The weird thing is you could have stood up and walked 3 feet to the
left or right an went around the visiting window, there was no walls. So I
remember he was talking to me, and smiling with such a loving smile. I remember
his mouth moving and facial expressions, and we were laughing towards the end. I
can't remember what he was telling me. this may sound weird, but I don't think I
was meant to, he might of been telling me about the future and some things that
were going to happen and wanted me to know that Ill be alright and would pull
through. And that's it, if there was more, I guess I don't remember.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I just remember us talking and smiling and laughing. All facial expressions, I mean I probably heard him in my dream, but don't remember hearing him when I woke up.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? I don't remember hearing sound or what he said I just remember his mouth moving and facial expressions. I do believe in the dream I heard him. I remember having a sense of peace.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? no
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? I cold only see his face and neck and shoulders, he looked the same, except happier. solid
How clearly did the deceased appear? Solid, as if he were real.
How much of the deceased did you see? Face, neck and shoulders
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? Yes, he looked the same age.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? In good shape, healthy.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? Could have been 2 minutes or 2 hours, dreams are weird. sudden
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Sudden, I had never dreamt about him before or after that experience.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
serious, calm, happy, at peace.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? I thinks so, but do not think I was meant to remember.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: Its just something you fell in your heart and soul. Not to mention its quite a coinceadince
Was the experience dream like in any way? Uncertain
A little bit, the pitch black and the light on my father was strange.
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Happy, I don't think I really understood in the dream what was going on until I woke up and got the phone call
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
I wasn't at the point of my life that anything made any sense. I was a kid. I used my Fathers death as a handicap to use drugs.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? There was no worst part, except for loosing my Father, he was only 43
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes A better outlook on life, but not until many years later, but I know this plays a big part inn it. I OD on Heroin several times, once my heart stopped, I shouldn't even be here.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes Love and Life is amazing, it brings people together even after death. I don't take death sobadly now, though it is sad. Its nice to know that death is just another door opening up for us.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? N0 comment
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Sadness, but in a way even though I didn't understand the importance of the dream during it, I feel as though I got to say goodbye.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? Yes
My boyfriend at the time was there, and when I woke up I had told him about the dream and the details of it. He was also there for the phone call about my Fathers death , which occured not to long after.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
The space was pitch black couldn't see where it began or ended. The light was covering my Father and "visiting window" and me once I got close to sit and talk.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
I can't remember what he told me once I woke up. I remember his facial expressions and his mouth moving while speaking and him smiling.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
Yes, when I was younger I used to see objects move, my family still doesn't believe me.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? No
Did you see a light? Yes
It was shining on him, and I stepped into it to talk to him.
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Most believe me, or have their own stories to tell.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? I wish he would come visit me again, though I know I will see him again one day.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? Yes
Unfortunately, I was adopted and had a very hard life as a very young little girl. When I got older my Father was in and out of my life and prison, he and my Biological Mother were very hard on drugs. So when I was about 19 my dad had just gotten out of prison and inherited money when my Grandpa died, and therefore bought a junkyard in St. Augustine IL. So I went to live there with him. Things went sour, so I left and hadn't talk to him since. Mean while I started using Heroin, which was a battle for me for 7 yrs. I am now clean.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes
I OD 3 times, The third time my heart stopped.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I had to repeat much of it, but that's OK it just shows my certainty.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. Yes, you can ask how our relationships were with the deceased before they passed