My first experience was on the night that my mother passed away.

all of my family was over my mothers house, as she had just passed that morning.

my sister and I were going through photo albums of my mother..and I remember at the time feeling so strongly that my mom was there watching us, with us.

I had gone to the bathroom and I remember being startled by her presence and all I "felt" was "look under the couch" so I left the bathroom went into the living room and had no idea why I was going to look under the couch...but there I was crouched over just looking, for what, I did not know.  Lo and behold I find this book and toy camera that my mom had bought for my son only a few months earlier for Christmas.  you see we had Christmas at my moms' house like every year and that day Jacob, my son had lost this book and toy camera that goes together for this electronic bear that tells stories.. my mom searched high and low for it for months.  and not but a few days before she died her and I were so puzzled as to where it went.  I remember her saying "I would kill to find where that went!" and there it was under the couch. 

My second experience was about two months after my mom passed. 

I was sitting on my couch with my three year old son and out of nowhere I started crying uncontrollably, with such sorrow and sadness, I was missing my mom terribly! my three year old says "mommy don't cry, im calling gramma right now"

so he grabs the phone sits on my lap and says "gramma come down from the sky right now, mommy is sad,  okay mommy, gramma is coming right now", he says.

well a few minutes later I look over at my son and begin talking about my mom.

reminding him of all the silly things she used to do with him.

and out of nowhere I start singing the song that my mom had made up for him.

Since the very day she died my sister and I were trying SO hard to remember the song that she had made up, but could not.  so as I begin singing this song at the same time im thinking in my head "I don't know the words or even the tune, why am I singing this" but the words just spilled out of my mouth, and there I was singing my moms song so my son, I know she was singing it through me.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes  the second experience is hard to put into words.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes  my arm and hand

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   yes it was my mom's, I could never forget that.

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           her perfume

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     yes

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   my mother

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        no

How long did the experience last?        maybe a few minuets

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         gradual

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Uncertain

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           words are limited in emotion..the feeling was real

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           calmness, peaceful

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I know my mom is okay and here when I need her the most

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      best, I felt her, the worst, I missed her even more

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I know that death is only a new beginning not an end

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Uncertain     

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?     Yes

I always expressed to my mom that when she died I would go insane.  She would laugh and say no you won't.  I asked "mom please try to come to me in a dream when you die" and said "if I can I will honey, but if I cant it doesn't mean im not there"

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            reassured

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

well the first experience was witnessed by my sister in way....

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes    

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes