Jan. 16: I am a very sound sleeper and woke up at 1:15 a.m. and felt someone was dying or that my youngest son needed asthma treatment. At first, I was concerned it was my father but it didn't feel "right" and my mother didn't call. There have been other times when this has happened to me. I was restless & couldn't get back to sleep so checked on my son & he was fine. About 1/2 hour later, I was able to fall back asleep. The following afternoon, I learned my dear friend had died unexpectedly in her sleep. I now believe she was coming to say good bye because I felt a sense of calm before falling back to sleep.  

A second experience occurred on Jan. 17th. I went to eat breakfast at a local restaurant & ended up sitting in a booth Cyndi & I sat in the last time I had breakfast there. I sat in her seat & remember looking up & thinking what a beautiful view she had. The restaurant was busy but I noticed a woman sitting by herself in another booth. I did not know (& had never seen) this woman. I ate, paid my bill & was leaving when this woman called to me, "Maam, I had a leading to give this to you." She then handed me a placemat with writing on it & I took it. She then went on, "I'm sorry, I just had this sudden need to write this & give it to you. Do you know what this means?" It appeared she had never done this before. I told her I did know and told her I had lost a close friend the day before. She broke into tears, apologized & hugged me. I was overcome and told her thank you. The feelings were very profound & I remember wanting to ask her for her phone number so I could find out more, etc. but then I felt it was a gift and I must take it. I left and went to a friend's house where I shared my experience with my deceased friend's husband. He read what was on the placemat & looked at me & said, "Rumi, Cyndi loved reading his poems & had a book of his poetry." This was very amazing & brought us both much comfort. 

1/22/08: I was driving and crying about my friend because I was thinking how we were almost soul-mates in a sense. We both had similar instincts & Cyndi was someone I really trusted on a deeper level. I was grieving this loss of friendship as I pulled into our garage. It had been snowing all day (total 9 inches) & the skies were overcast. As I was unloading the back of my van, a beam of sunlight shone over my shoulder into the van. Now this struck me since it was overcast & I hadn't seen the sun all day. I turned around & looked up into the sky to see the sun break through a small area in the clouds. This made me smile and was so strikingly beautiful. I then got my things out of the back of the van. When I turned around again (10 seconds later), the skies were cloudy like they had been all day. I felt very peaceful.

Have you had multiple experiences?   Yes     3 with this person

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

Yes

I have a strong sense of needing to communicate things & feelings Cyndi had prior to her death to help her husband cope. This is stronger than the usual need to comfort someone who is dealing with the death of a loved one.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? 

Yes. I had never heard of Rumi, the 13th century mystic or of his interpretations. Cyndi read a lot so receiving Rumi's "The Guest House" feels like there is a message for me. Cyndi liked to teach & explore and this feels like she wants to expand my knowledge, etc.

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          

Two out of the 3 experiences felt real to me but others could doubt me (but I know they are real). The experience receiving an actual written document is physical and helps people believe my story.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  

No           

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

Calm, a release of sadness

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Yes

I felt as if Cyndi was confirming my thoughts & telling me she was with me.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

All of them have been soothing & have helped me. The worst part is that I wish her husband would have an experience as he is so completely devastated & this would help him.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?        

No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         

No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?           

Peace, happiness

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          

No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  

No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   

Yes

I feel a strong need to communicate how Cyndi felt about things (marriage, house, child) prior to her death. Sometimes I feel as if thoughts come in a strangely organized fashion (as if they are her words vs. my thoughts of grief).

Did you become aware of future events?      

No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    

No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?           

No

Did you see a light?          

Uncertain

I saw the sun on an overcast, snowy day.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?           

No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     I've shared the first 2 experiences with many people who knew Cyndi. They feel these experiences were gifts. Cyndi's husband took great comfort in these experiences.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  

No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      

I am so thankful for these experiences.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?        

No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?          

Yes 

I've had a number of experiences throughout my life and I'm known to have "good instinct." My grandmother visited me the evening she died & brought me a sense of peace. I had an experience when my (foster) brother died (3 1/2 years old, expected death due to health condition on Jan. 22, 1982). I've also had numerous unexplained night wakings (check on the baby & then find baby not breathing, etc.) & I believe my grandparents & brother are with me. This is just a feeling but I will sometimes wake up crying tears for them because I dreamt about experiences from my childhood. Again, I sleep very sound & this actually annoys my husband!

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?              

Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.   

Thank you for providing this experience & this website.