Too many things to say before and after the death of my brother.

Premonitory dreams prior to the sickness

In fact I saw myself sick, receiving heavy treatments, a nurse telling me I was going to die and all that 1 year prior to my brother's sickness

When I saw my brother sick at the hospital, in bed, receiving chemotherapy, I recalled that dream I don't know why, then I understood that it was him who was going to die. /His words before his death are the following

He saw himself at his burial, say goodbye to his friends, then a nurse telling him she could not do anything else for him, it's him who told me that a few weeks later before he died. 

His wife, who 2 weeks after his death received by mail the day before Whit Monday a heart shaped medal engraved with the date of their marriage which took place at Gustave Institute on March 25 2011. Nobody knew about the existence of this medal. 

We talk a lot  everyday me and my brother about the future of the family. I have to support my parents, his wife, his daughter and most of all I should not worry because he feels ok. 

The word love keeps appearing during our discussions.

And then as evidence for us that the bone marrow transplant done 3 days before his death ( with my stem cells) was going to help us so that we can be very close to each other: this is repeated continuously for reasons I don't really understand.

These events regard my brother but I've had some other events some years earlier just before my granddad's death

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    A  discussion from consciousness to consciousness. Difficult to explain: disturbing but full of tenderness at the same time

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  I know he wants to communicate with me and I understand.

         If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?       My brother's voice but also from time to time someone else's voice giving advice.
         Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No
         Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Uncertain

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  No

Did you see the deceased?         No

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?           He was put into induced coma for 3 days and I knew when I went in the room that he could see and understand us.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        The moment of this experience was, I would say about these contacts were more during the induced coma

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Peace, the relief of not being sick any more

The importance of trying to  move forward for us in the life ahead

great love 

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  His dreams before his death

-seeing his burial, the farewell to his friends

- the nurse who told him there was no hope

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

         Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:          Because I don't have enough words to be able to describe this  amazing contact full of tenderness and I think that it  is very important to say this and try to understand why some people have this possibility. 

         Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Grief because of the separation and immediately a presence of different emotions - try  to do something quick for the family, for his wife, as if my brother asked me now to be very strong in the coming days which will be demanding quite some courage from my side.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     Doubts before my brother passing away and then after his death a great inner peace mixed with sadness which I know its just earthly 

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:            A lot more sensitive about people who suffer

I am able to feel them even on the street or  other

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?  Life-changing                   and a deep affection for people in difficulties.
              
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No       

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes            

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No 

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Difficult to say. 

A mixture of sadness and a certainty that he was in peace.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

my parents and his wife

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

another world somewhere else

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain 

this feeling of profound love and premonitory dreams have been present for several years.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes. Mostly at the level of consciousness

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes   my husband and sister in law.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            Yes

Lunch with a  doctor

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No  

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes  Some years earlier while sleeping and dreaming while in apnea. A very bright light told me that I was ready.  I didn't understand. I had difficulties to recover my breath. A few days later I learnt that my granddad had had a very severe hemorrhage and he passed away a few days later. 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes