oldest son Adam (23) overdosed on Heroin. He was recovering from a meth habit
and had been clean for a year when he started feeling he had over-come the
addiction and started drinking. He had an altercation at work with another
employee, they were sent home until and investigation was done. Adam had two
boys, 5 and 3 years old and he had been doing so well as a young father and had
everything going his way, child-support deducted monthly for both, spent every
week-end with his youngest and every 2 weeks with the oldest. He had it all
going in the right direction as a father and that one night worried him so much
that he was about to lose his job and let his kids, his family and most of all
himself down. He started drinking, went to a person he knew could get some
speed. They were not able to get speed but instead got Heroin. Adam had been
clean from a needle for a year. He overdosed and died sometime in the early
morning. I was so devastated but knew the power of the Lord and knew that Adam
was in the hands of the Lord and Adam was at peace. As the days went by I
mourned deeply the doubt started coming as to the safety of Adam and his soul. I
sat on my back porch on mid-day and tried to imagine Adam sitting next to me and
I could almost feel his presence as I visualized him there. I had such great
feeling from it that I went back to the porch around the same time of the day
and tried to visualize him again. All at once I heard a vacuum sound a "whoosh"
and I was seeing beautiful blue skies and seeing, it seemed, like thousands of
people in this place. The moment I realized what I was seeing, I heard another
"whoosh" sound and I was at another place and I saw a young man walking, it
seems, on a path going somewhere. I realized then that my physical body was not
there but I was seeing this as if I was standing right there. I focused in and
realized that the young man was my son Adam. As I said this to myself he turned
around and looked back in my direction with a puzzling look on his face as if he
heard something but did not know what. At that moment I was back in my body and
on the porch. I can't describe the awe I felt, the unbelievable feeling I had
that I knew I was out of my body and that I saw my son. I felt the Lord was
showing me that he did have my son and that he was taking him somewhere and the
feeling placed in my heart was that he was not done with Adam and he was in His
hands. I have never doubted this was a real experience, never will. I believe
the Lord knew my worries and loved me enough to go through this experience. I
feel so special and so in awe of the Lord more now then ever for showing his
compassion to me as Adam's mother to ease my grief and know with all my heart
that I will see my son again. In this experience I know there is life after
death and we will see our loved one's again.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? very conscious and alert
Was the experience dream like in any way? No, not at all. It was just like I just left my body and my mind went to this place. I kept saying to myself at the beginning "What is going on, I know that I am of sound mind, that I was not taking any medication. I was completely aware of everything.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I had no appearance, only my eyes and mind
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Shock at first, then elated and in awe of every minute. I felt every second of the experience that it was exactly what it was, a spiritual out of body and the whole time I am still knowing that my body was not there and was not in this world. I was never afraid, just shock at first that I was blessed enough to be in this experience. To see my son was the most awesome feeling even though I knew he was not acknowledging I was there.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? The actual feeling I first felt was a vacuum feeling. The sounds were like a whoosh sound
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? Uncertain Just a place. I was not a negative feeling. The people were everywhere and I did not zero in on any one person for the moment I saw the people, the whoosh sound came and I was looking at a young man walking, realizing at that moment it was Adam.
Did you see a light? Uncertain A really bright pretty blue sky. It seemed to me at the moment I saw the sky I thought it must be an ocean and these people were on the beach.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes My son Adam. No communication. He didn't seem to know why he looked back. At first it hurt me that he didn't see me or hear me. I know I had distracted him in some way for the way he looked back with a puzzling look.
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes That I could see, feel, smell, hear, and think without a physical body.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain Don't know how long the experience was for sure.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Later after the experience I felt sad that my son did not see me or hear me or have any communication with him at all. Later after a lot of prayer it was placed in my heart that the Lord had Adam and that he was taking him somewhere and in Heaven he would know me and it did not matter if I was his Mom in Heaven for he would know me that was all that was important for our reunion.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes It seemed that it was just known that I was there out of body and that I was there for the purpose of seeing what I saw and it did not seem as if I had any other action to take but to see.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No I just heard the whoosh and was back
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes More spiritual, more believing in the power and love of the Lord. Feeling the Lord's love so profound and compassionate for giving me this experience.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? All areas of my life have been enhanced. My faith has grown so much deeper and I have no doubt of life or life after.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes As I said , more spiritual.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Those that are close to me and know me know I am telling the truth and some cry of relief knowing Adam is o.k. It has also helped them in there spiritual beliefs as well.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? I wanted to go back there again. I still do and hope someday I will. I hold onto the memory of the experience and believe I will experience out of body again when I am in the right place in my mind, heart and soul.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best was that it happened and there were no bad , just a feeling of I didn't get long enough to see Adam. He was a very handsome young man and he looked the same but his hair was longer and it seemed he did not have on a shirt.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I think I have said told everything that happened.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes