I was lying in my bed, on my side, crying. This was the evening of my father's death - around 7pm. I was heart broken. I suddenly saw my father's face. He was also on his side - looking me straight in the eyes. He was surrounded by light - I could only see his face - and he had a radiant smile on his face. I had never seen him look so happy. I didn't hear anything, but I felt him say "Don't be sad - this is wonderful." I sat up in bed & he was gone.
At first I
was confused & thought my mind was self-medicating itself. But the more I think
about it, the more I'm certain Daddy came back to comfort me & share his
happiness & relief. I know he was afraid of dying.
Did you sense an awareness or presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them ? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? Yes
Describe the appearance of the deceased: I saw only his face. He was radiant - looked very happy. I had never seen him look so happy. He was surrounded by bright light. I think his eyes were blue or there was some blue light. His eyes were really brown.
How clearly did the deceased appear? Solid.
How much of the deceased did you see? Head only.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? He looked the same age.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? He didn't have any visible infirmities before his death. Looked radiant.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in your surroundings at the time of your experience? No - unless it was my subconscious.
How long did the experience last? Seconds.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? The entire experience came & went - no noticeable time difference
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? He was radiant - very happy.
Describe: He was radiant - very happy.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? I didn't really hear anything, but I felt him tell me to "Don't be sad - this is wonderful" - almost like he was bursting to tell me his secret.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: At first I felt very happy to see Daddy - then I felt confused. How could he be here?
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain
Describe: I try to focus on his radiant smile - it helps at time.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Uncertain
Describe: I don't know that I am absolutely believe it was my father. I know I experienced this, but I can't help wondering if it was my mind trying to self-medicate itself. We were very close at the end - I really want to believe he came back to comfort me (& share his secret).
To the best of your knowledge, did the deceased, during their life, ever have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual experience? Yes
Describe: My father described "watching" the doctors work on him during a heart attack in an ER years ago.
experience dream like in any way?
Did you see a light? Yes
Describe: He was surrounded by light.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
I felt my father was sharing a wonderful secret with me - that we are silly to
fear death because what comes next is wonderful.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
Describe: I would have NEVER thought something like this could REALLY happen - and especially not to me. Now it seems to be a very real possibility - life after death & communication with someone who has already died.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
My little sister & my father's brother were comforted by the description of the
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? Yes
Describe: I have been researching this & have entered my experience on one other web site.
emotions/feelings did you experience following your experience?
Confusion. Relief. Doubt. Happiness. Thankfulness
(to my father for making the effort)
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Best - if this was real, my father is happy & out of pain. Worst - not knowing if it was real.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Describe: Believe more in life after death.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes