ON DECEMBER 14 200,1 MY BROTHER HAD BEEN OUT ALL DAY WITH A GIRL ON A FIRST DATE. ID BEEN ASLEEP FOR MOST OF THE MORNING AND HADN'T REALIZED THAT HE ASKED ME FOR PERMISSION TO USE MY CAR. NORMALLY I'D SAY "NO, IT HAD NO INSURANCE" AND I WAS A STICKLER FOR LAWS AND ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT THE ACCIDENTS ANYONE WOULD/MIGHT GET INTO IF THEY USED IT.
WELL HE WAS OUT ALL DAY STOPPED BY ON HIS WAY BACK TO DROP THIS GIRL OFF AND WANTING ME TO MEET HER. BUT I WAS IN A DEEP SLEEP AND WOULDN'T WAKE UP. HE LEFT TO TAKE HER HOME WITHOUT SEEING ME. I WOKE UP IN THE AFTERNOON FINDING OUT HE HAD MY CAR AND WAITED FOR A PHONE CALL, AS HE WOULD NORMALLY CHECK IN TO LET ME KNOW HE AND MY CAR WAS OK - BUT NO CALL. I STARTED TO WORRY. (A NORMAL EVERYDAY THING FOR ME I WORRIED ABOUT EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING) SO AT NIGHTFALL, WHEN NO CALL HAD BEEN RECEIVED AND NO MITCHELL, I TOOK A SHOWER AND WAS PREPARING FOR THE ACCIDENT MENTALLY. AT THE TIME, I DIDN'T REALIZE WHAT I WAS DOING BUT IT SHOCKED ME LATER. I WAS PUTTING MY MAKEUP ON AND MENTALLY I PLAYED OUT WHAT WAS TO HAPPEN NEXT, AS I PUT ON MY EYELINER I HEARD THE SOUNDS OF A CAR PULLING INTO THE DRIVEWAY, THEN THE SOUNDS OF SOMEONE ASKING FOR ME THEN THE WORDS OF "DINA YOU HAVE A BLUE CAR?? THEN THE WORDS OF THERE'S BEEN AN ACCIDENT?
THIS ALL HAPPENED 15 MINUTES LATER AS I JUST SAID HAPPENED - ONLY THIS WAS REAL LIFE. IT WAS A COUSIN WHO SEEN THE ACCIDENT. I FLIPPED I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL 2 HOURS LATER TO SEE HIM FOR THE LAST TIME. HE WAS FOUND ON THE HIGHWAY FACE DOWN WITH NO PULSE. AFTER HOURS OF CRYING AND FAMILY MEMBERS, I LAID DOWN TO TRY TO SLEEP BUT COULDN'T. THERE WAS THIS NOISE OUTSIDE MY WINDOW THAT WAS NEVER THERE OR COULDN'T OF BEEN THERE. IT WAS THE SOUND OF THE OCEAN WAVES BREAKING ON A CLIFF MAYBE, BUT I DEFINITELY KNOW IT WAS THE OCEAN. THIS WAS SO WEIRD AS WE WERE LIVING FAR FROM THE OCEAN WELL WE SHOULDN'T OF HEARD IT - AND I HAVEN'T HEARD IT SINCE.
I WAS AFRAID OF THE SOUND. I WOKE MY HUSBAND FOR HIM TO HEAR AND POSSIBLY EXPLAIN WHAT WAS GOING ON. HE ALSO SAID IT WAS THE OCEAN. WELL, I DID FINALLY CONFIRM THAT SOUND CONNECTED TO MY BROTHER DEATH. THE ACCIDENT HAPPENED ON THE HIGHWAY ABOVE THE BEACH PUNALUU AND I'D VISIT THE SITE AS ITS A MEMORIAL FOR HIM.
AS I SAT
THERE ONE DAY TALKING TO HIM THERE WAS SILENCE NO CARS PASSING BY SO I HEARD IT,
THE SOUND I HEARD OUTSIDE MY WINDOW THAT NIGHT HE DIED, THE OCEAN. THEN I
REALIZED MY BROTHER WAS WITH ME THE WHOLE NIGHT HE DIED AND THAT WAS HIS WAY OF
SHOWING IT. I GUESS I FELT A SENSE OF CALM AND SEVERE SADNESS FOLLOWING THIS.
ANOTHER ACCOUNT WAS 2 DAYS AFTER HIS DEATH. I WENT TO THE SITE FOR THE FIRST TIME WORRIED ABOUT MY BROTHERS SPIRIT LINGERING THERE. I WAS TALKING OUT LOUD TO HIM SAYING HE BETTER NOT BE THERE, AND THAT I LOVED HIM. WELL WHILE I WAS TALKING TO HIM THERE WAS A CLANKING NOISE AND IT WAS GETTING LOUDER AFTER EVERY QUESTION I WAS ASKING HIM AS IF HE WAS ANSWERING ME IT WAS THE SOUND OF SOMETHING BANGING BEER BOTTLES. IT WAS THE BOTTLES OF BEER THAT WAS PUT THERE BY FAMILY MEMBERS. HE WAS TELLING ME HE WAS OKAY.
Did you sense an awareness or presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them ? Uncertain
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally, or outside of you, inside of you, or did you not hear a voice or sound but had a knowing of what was communicated? NOT REALLY
Did you see the deceased? No
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? GRADUAL
Your beliefs immediately prior to the experience regarding your fear of death: Very fearful
Your beliefs currently regarding your fear of death: Not fearful
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: SCARED
What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have: Joy
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
Describe: I KNOW HE WAS WITH ME
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices? I'M STILL LOST AND NEED BADLY TO HAVE CLOSURE TO SAY GOODBYE
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes