February of 1999, my mother had undergone heart surgery to repair valve damage
that she incurred due to a childhood illness. We were told that her operation
was a success, and in early March, she was sent home from the hospital. But her
health continued to decline, and she passed away in late March. Prior to her
operation, she and I had begun to discuss life after death, as both of us were
beginning to believe that there was something more, and that death was not a
final end. But following her death I began to question this repeatedly, and I
would pray continually for signs that she was ok, and that there was something
more beyond life on earth.
Approximately one week after her death, I had just laid down with my youngest
son, who was having a hard time falling to sleep since her death. My son had
fallen asleep, and I felt like I was just beginning to fall asleep, when I
looked up at the doorway, and in the darkness I saw a brilliant bright light
towards the top of the doorway, near the ceiling. I felt without any question
the complete essence of my mom. The light radiated and with it, I felt
radiated. In what seemed like a moment, I felt complete joy, and love. I wish I
could explain it better. I have never felt this feeling before in my life, and
I was absolutely sure that my mother was completely happy, and at peace. I
think, thanks to her, I literally felt it.
day I told my son about this experience, but did not tell anyone else. About a
month later, my sister told me that at approximately the same time, she had had
a dream in which she had seen my mother, in which my mom was standing beside my
deceased grandmother. She said my mother looked very young and was radiating.
She said she was smiling and that she knew she was happy and at peace.
experience difficult to express in words?
The only thing that was hard to
communicate, was the feeling of complete love and joy that I felt, for I have
never felt this feeling in my entire lifetime.
touch familiar or unfamiliar?
It was very
familiar. I can't explain it, but I felt the very being of my mom
Did you feel a touch or
experience any physical contact from the deceased?
The light which radiated from
the doorway, and from which I felt the essence of my mom, radiated me
internally. I felt complete joy, love, and peace.
Was anything communicated by the touch?
pure joy, love,
Is there any
possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
I don't think
you see the deceased? Not
in bodily form
did the deceased appear?
bright, radiant light
you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the
long did the experience last?
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
joy, love, peace.
do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:
pure joy, love, and peace like I never before felt in my life.
there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best part
was feeling the joy and peace that I believe is hers now, and knowing that she
is alright. The worst part, was coming back to reality.
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
The fear of
death, (mine and those that I love), which is something I was petrified of from
the time I was a small child, has subsided.
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
definite belief now, that there is a life after death.
the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death,
afterlife, God, etc.?
fear of death, which I no longer have. I have the peace of knowing that my
mother is happy and at peace, and that I will see her again one day.
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Following this initial experience, I have had several vivid dreams in which I
have communicated with my mother, my father, and a deceased friend.
you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?
you see a light?
brilliant light above the doorway
you shared this experience with others?
Oddly, several of my brothers and sisters have had similar experiences regarding
the deaths of my mother and father.
you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or
other spiritual event?
I was younger, and living in my parent's home, I had one very frightening
experience in which I felt myself leave my body that was lying in my bed, and
float down the stairs into the living room where my parents and several brothers
and sisters were.
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?