I was taking a shower and I was crying really hard. I wasn't ready to get out of the shower so I decided to continue to take a bath. As I was in the tub crying uncontrollably with my eyes closed. I then saw myself standing outside on a side walk in front of a house I had never been to at the time. But yet I was just standing there I think waiting for something. It was a corner house in the middle of a nice neighborhood. I was alone. Then as i looked to my right on the corner where the stop sign was, I saw a young girl walking towards me. I do not know where she came from. She was a small build and she had short brown hair and she was wearing bell bottoms hip hugger jeans and a pullover blue striped shirt. She didn't have any make up on and she looked a bit ragged. I didn't want to stare at her but I couldn't help to keep looking. I thought she was going to walk on by me since I had no never seen her before and didn't know who she was.
As she got
closer to me I stepped back so she could walk on by me and then she stopped
right in front of me. She put her hands on my shoulders and said to me, "I'm
Heidi." I raised my head to the left and upwards as to ask God what this was all
about, but before I was finished with the question I was somewhere else. Heidi
is my 18 year old daughter who died in a car accident 5 months prior to this
This time I was alone again but in clouds of grays. I was very comfortable I remember and I was very content. All of a sudden I was being told about a girl who has lived a miserable life. This girl has many times tried to kill herself and Heidi wanted so badly to come back to live on earth with us all again. I was told that the two of them and God has agreed to try and see if Heidi and this girl would trade places.
Now I was also told that there were some things that Heidi would have to do for this girl if this change took place and then and only then could Heidi come and tell us that this was her. I was not believing what I was seeing so periodically I would open my eyes to see if I was still in the tub and I was and I could see this all happening between my eyes and the tub.
At some point my other daughter, Nicole, who had been sick and had been in bed then came into the bathroom and said, "mom are you ok?" I then opened my eyes and not aware at the time I was still crying uncontrollably said to her "yah, why?" she said because I had been in the tub for a long time crying and she was worried about me.
Then throughout that week I was seeing visions of this girl's life with her mother who was a terrible person to her and at one point I was about a foot from the ceiling of a hospital room looking in on this young girl as she laid there unconscious in this bed. Then to my right from the corner of the room about a foot from the ceiling I saw a beautiful beam of light that was round and it went straight into the head and shoulders of this girl laying in this hospital bed. Then I watched as this girls head slowly moved up into this light and then her shoulders and then her body and as she moved upwards her head stayed the same but her body changes into more of a fetus then she was gone. It was right away then that Heidi started coming down head first into this tunnel or beam of beautiful lights. But it was clear that Heidi was still dead. She stayed the same as she went through this light and then she laid right down into onto the hospital bed where this girl had laid. But Heidi's body laid into this other girls body.
Then the beam of light disappeared and this girl was waking up. Then someone came into the room that this girl did not know. It wasn't until the next day that I told anyone because i was not sure what had happened. I thought I must be losing my mind.
never heard of anything like this before and I was not sure what to think of all
of this. For a week this went on - me seeing this girls life as it was for her
and then the first Friday night after this I decided to go to a website that i
had been going to recently and I shared with them what I had experienced and
asked them what level of crazy was i on. Then all of a sudden I was bombarded
with many questions about walk-ins. I about fell off my chair when I heard there
was a name for this and was so shaken up by this answer that I had to get off
the computer and go do something normal for me and that was to go play bingo
lololol. Since then I have learned by at least two different mediums that this
was not going to happen any more because this girl was not ready yet to give up
her life and so this change was not going to happen anymore. I was told I got to
witness this change as it was actually happening and it was the most beautiful
thing I ever saw, that beam of light.
Date of experience: approximately August 10 1998
Length of time between death of deceased and your experience: almost 5 months
Details of location of experience and your activity at the time of experience: I was taking a shower and decided to continue to take a bath
Degree of bereavement for deceased immediately prior to the experience: Severe sadness and/or grief feelings
Degree of alertness immediately prior to experience: Fully alert
After your experience, did you consider the contents of your experience: Frightening
Have you had multiple experiences? Yes approximately 20-30
Was this experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Because it was hard to believe myself
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I have explained above
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? this voice was outside of me and maybe inside to but it was all around me I know. I believe it was coming from outside me to inside me. It was everywhere I know that.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? No it was not my daughters voice it was a masculine voice and I was told it was a higher being
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? not at all
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? no none
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? She looked as she did when she was dead
How clearly did the deceased appear? very clear no transparency at all
How much of the deceased did you see? all of her
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? she was 18, as she was when she died
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? she was dead but normal and all there
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? the original first vision must have been about one hour or so but then throughout that week I continued to get more visions as if I wasn't finished in the tub and i was getting the rest in spurts through out that next week.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? The beginning was very sudden and the end was gradual
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: Because after I shared this with others that are professionals in this spiritual experience and they explained it all to me then i knew it was real without a doubt.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
What did you feel (while awake) immediately prior to your experience? Relaxed
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain
I don't know that it was a healing but it was a learning experience that I then learned as much as I could about walk-ins after this.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was this beam of light I saw and the worst was watching parts of this girls horrible and sad life with her mother.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Describe: I know am more spiritually aware of Heidi's presence and I am able to hear her talking to me and make out what she is saying a lot of the times.
What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have? Other belief, now know a lot more about the spiritual world that I did before and all about walk-ins now too!
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
I then knew that there was such thing as walk ins which I had no idea about prior to this
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes
It gave me a lot of spiritual understandings about life after death and many other outlets to this spiritual experiences I have had since this one.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes
I at the time had never seen the neighborhood I was standing in but soon after I moved into the house I was standing in front of at the time of this vision. At the time of this vision I had never seen this house before. I now live in it and have since right after this happened.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was very confused at all this. I had no idea what had happened or why. I was worried that I was not doing as well as I thought I had been doing all of a sudden.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
There was no time at all where I was time was not of any matter there.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
There have been many different paranormal things that have happened since this and Heidi continues to use her death date to contact us.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? Yes
This other girl who was suicidal and that changed places with Heidi briefly.
Did you see a light? Yes
It was a beam of light that was multi colored and they were different dimensions too. There were bubbles in this and small spears of light going through it too. It had many tiny particles moving and stars were in there too. It was the most beautiful light I have ever seen.
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? Yes
Throughout that week there were many places I saw. I saw this girl in her kitchen and in her bedroom and with friends and also at a airport to meet her dad she had never seen before.
Have you shared this experience with others?
When I first told my family they were as worried about me as I was. Then when I took this experiences to a site called spirit space they right away were amazed that I was able to experience this because to there knowledge they had never heard of anyone before getting to witness this but they knew that this happened to walk ins. They were surprised I had no idea what I was witnessing but they knew it was real. The they explained it to me. Judith Guggenhiem a co author of Hello From Heaven and owner of the web site After-death communications also helped me to learn as much about walk-ins as possible and she was there to help me to understand it better.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? Yes
I have shared this with web sites one was spirit space and another is after-death communications
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? no
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes
Yes many many years before this experience I had a obe but did not know what had happened I only knew that I could feel myself up on a cloud and my loved ones were pulling me back down. but this was in 1982 and I had no idea about this spiritual stuff until the death of my daughter and that was 3-14-98 and the reason that I went in search of this was due to Heidi's drivers license # backwards being the exact date she died even the letter in front. let me share with you what I live with now. her D.L# is B 7172413 Heidi hit a Bridge the letter B and start in the back with the 3 for March the month she died and then 14 the date she died and then add 7 and 2 are 9 and then 7 and 1 is 8 for 98 3-14-98 and she hit a Bridge. When I noticed this a few nights after her services I was in shock and totally beside myself I couldn't believe my eyes. So I had no idea about any of this spirituality at all prior to this. I then went to a library to look up coincidences because I had no idea what else to call this. Well I found this and it led me to the words phenomenal and then to mediumship and that's where it all started and I now live in this new and wonderful world but to many I am just crazy lololol. They are now realizing that I am not crazy since John Edwards and James Van Praagh have there TV shows out.