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Ellie S ADC

Experience description:  

I was lying in bed, relaxed, but fully alert, not even drowsy. Suddenly, a being entered my room from the window-side to my right. I can only describe it like an electricity/energy sense of this presence. There was a definite, for-sure knowing that this was a person/being/angel.  

My first thought was, "I should be scared. There is someone in my room." But I immediately realized that I was not scared at all. What I felt was as if I was being touched/enveloped by warmth, a glowing light, and a gentle, deep love.  

I wondered if this were an angel, or if this was Jesus. Only later did I think about that this had happened not long after my grandmother's death and might have been her. 

There were no words spoken, nothing that I saw with my eyes, but I knew this being was real. If there had been words, they might have been

   1. There is more to this world than you know of from the science and materialism you've been exposed to.

   2, Love is what this whole existence is all about.

   3, Love is not an impersonal force. Love is always person-to-person.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     Yes   It was a clear, absolutely vivid experience, but without describable visual component or any auditory component.

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? 

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   No                                   

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   Yes             

Describe where and how you were touched:
 See above. Not a physical touch, more like the touch of energy/electricity.

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Familiar -- like when you can sort of sense someone is in the room with you without actually seeing them, but this was much more so, more vivid, more sure.  

Was anything communicated by the touch?   See above: Love

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No.

Did you see the deceased?

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Uncertain     I would not call this an emotion or mood. I can only say that this being was loving and filled with the joy of love.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   No earthly information. Only a "statement" of the reality of the spiritual world, spiritual beings.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real

Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:    It happened. I was alert, awake, sane. Can't prove it any more than I can prove that I am sitting here looking at my computer.

Was the experience dream like in any way?    No   

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
    I believe because I was steeped in an environment (college and grad school) of scientific materialism for several years after this experience, that I did not integrate the experience into my worldview or let the emotional comfort and healing it brought really permeate my being. But all the while, it was lying dormant and I feel was a part of bringing me to a deep faith in God at age 25, and which has continued to grow and develop through out my life up until this point.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?
    The best was the experience itself, that it happened.  

The worst was that I did not share it with anyone, not believing that anyone would believe me, and that I did not have an intellectually affirmed faith in God at the time that allowed me to consciously and fully absorb this beautiful encounter into my earthly life -- This took many years.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?   
    I believe it laid the foundation of making me a woman of deep faith in God, of making me a Christian (with the Christian theology of God as personal), and finally of making me a charismatic (seeing and exercising spiritual gifts in the present).   

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?    Yes    Yes, but it seems that it was delayed because only later could I integrate this with a cognitive understanding/belief in God. (Happened when I was 22, re-discovered my belief in God at age 25)

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    After 3-4 years. (See question #25)

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       Uncertain   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?       
    That Love is the center of all of existence, and this Love is utterly personal.

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes    I am not sure if this began then, but I do have a deep empathic feeling for people's emotional suffering. Sometimes, if someone is recounting a hard/sad experience to me, even if they are smiling as they talk, tears will pour down my cheeks, I sense the person's deep sorrow/anguish. When this happens, I am not sad myself, more as if the Spirit within me is weeping with this person.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    Uncertain    I still do not know if the being who encountered me was my recently deceased grandmother or an angelic being.

Did you see a light?    Yes    Not with my outer eyes, but sensed/seen by the inner eyes of my spirit.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    Several years after we were married, I told my husband. I recently shared the experience with my two grown daughter and a close friend.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No   

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?    Four years after this experience, I went to graduate school in Christian education where I came to love studying Theology. I now realize that some of the profound insights I had into Christology and Trinitarian understanding (had a professor who was awed by this) had come to me not by my own reasoning or "smarts", but rather through the divine revelation given to me by God when that Being of Love entered my room when I was age 22.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes    One, which I will explain in another questionnaire like this one when I have time, on this website. Several others which have affirmed, expanded, but not reproduced this experience.

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes    See question #44.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?    Yes