Fran D's ADC

Experience description:  

I was 17, staying with my Grandmother as she lived alone and was frightened to be alone at night.  She lived next door to us, and all of us spent much time there.  I was lying in bed with the door to my room open, through which I could hear and see my Grandmother if she needed me.  The house was dark, but enough light was shining through the window to allow me to see the clock next to my bed.  I looked over, and though I cannot now recall the exact time, it was sometime between 1:00 and 2:00 am. 

I then saw a small ball of light traveling down the hall that entered into the bedroom, it was moving towards my room rather quickly.  Although it was only a ball of light, I somehow knew it was my brother.  I remember screaming out his name, but my screams somehow were not being heard by my Grandmother who was in the next room (again my door was open).  As the ball of light reached my room, it then turned and went along the wall rather than straight to my bed, almost as if it was trying not to wake my Grandmother.  The ball of light grew larger and when the light reached my bed, I clearly saw my brother.  I am not sure if he was only apparent from the waist up, or it was because he was standing at the end of the bed, but I only saw him from the waist up.  He was wearing white pants and a purple shirt, one of his favorite outfits, and the exact outfit my mom chose for him to be buried in. He was almost transparent, glowing, as if he had a light bulb inside of him. 

It was then that I saw my body sit up outside of it self. I was still laying in bed, but part of me sat up, almost as if I were transparent like him at the time.  I laying in bed could actually see myself sit up, it is hard to explain.  I wasn't frightened of him, but afraid of what was happening, as it was so unexpected.  All I could do was yell out his name, I was in such shock that I didn't say any of the things I now wish that I had said.  He smiled at me, he was so at peace (which he rarely was in life-he was sick with juvenile diabetes and very troubled).  He smiled so beautifully and laughed saying to me, "Fran Bod, (My nickname from him (long story)) you're not going to throw up on me are you?"  He then stood there and smiled at me, I kept opening and closing my eyes as I was sitting up because I was so amazed.  All of a sudden I opened and closed them again, and he was gone and I was again laying in the bed in the dark. 

My heart was racing and I couldn't understand why my Grandmother had not been awakened, I then looked at the clock to see if I had been sleeping and the time was less than five minutes from the time I had looked at it before the experience.  I of course at first doubted myself, was it real or a dream, but it was so vivid and it stays with me everyday.  I can see it as clearly now as I could then.  I know it was real and he was letting me know he was at peace.  My mother had a similar experience about one week later, although she and I did not share our experiences with one another for months later.  My sister also had a similar experience years later.  I feel so thankful that God has given us this blessing.  I never doubted God or that there was a heaven, but now I have seen the peace and beauty that comes to us when we leave this world.  I wish everyone could experience this.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    As above, he smiled and laughed at me saying, "You're not going to throw up on me are you?"

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  It is hard to describe, I heard his voice, but I don't think he spoke to me verbally as we do in this life.  It was more as if I could hear his voice and words, but it was through a sense of knowing what he was saying rather than actually hearing it.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           Exactly the same as it was when he was alive

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No, only other person in the house was my Grandmother, who was female and asleep.

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

Looked exactly as he did when he was alive, same age as when passed, 27.  He was wearing his favorite outfit, which he was buried in, his hair and features were all the same.  He was bright and transparent, however, like there was a light bulb inside of him.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Somewhat transparent.  Skin tone and color of clothes easily seen, but it was like a light bulb was inside of him, glowing from the inside out.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       From waist up, but he was standing at the end of my bed, so he may have been complete in appearance.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       Appeared to be the same age, 27.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Perfectly healthy and happy.  He had extreme neuropathy of the legs, but had not yet lost his legs when he died.  I could not see him from the waist down as he was standing at the end of my bed.  He was very happy though, which he was not when he died.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        It had to be less than five minutes, as I looked at the clock before and after the experience.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Happy and at peace

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           It was so vivid, different from a dream.  I was AWAKE and can recall every part of the experience.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Not really fear, but total surprise.  I was happy, but afraid of why I was experiencing the event.  The event was so quick, I didn't have time to experience the happiness and excitement I think I would feel during the experience were I lucky enough to experience it again.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           N0 comment

Yes, even though I knew he was with God, others say that those who commit suicide do not go to heaven.  Once I saw the happiness and peace in him that night, there is absolutely no doubt that he is with God.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best-seeing how happy he was

Worst- it was over so quick and I now long to connect with him again

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      I feel I am more spiritual and more in touch with God than before, I now cherish each and every moment with those I love           
             
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     Less of a fear of death

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     I fear dying too early (not seeing my children grow, etc.), but I do not fear death in general anymore.  I understand the happiness that awaits us.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Amazed, happier and more at peace knowing he was ok

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

I have since felt the presence and seen ghostly beings at an abandoned house near where I live, I also have pictures of those beings.  I had seen a ghostly being at this house as a child though.  I do feel much more in touch with the spiritual world, and more often feel the presence of those I love who have passed around me.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I watched myself sit up from my body, which was laying in bed. I too was glowing at the time.

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?       No

Did you see a light?           Yes

Bright, white light.  He presented as a ball of light and then once he reached my bed he was in his body form, but with light shining from the inside out.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Surprised, depending on their beliefs, some believe it was real and some believe I saw what I needed to see in my own mind.  Until you truly experience such an event, I don't think you can understand.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            Yes

Hello From Heaven website years ago

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes