I was walking home from a meeting of a gay male discussion group on the subject of living as a gay person and dealing with life and romance as a gay male.  The walk was about 1 mile in the downtown area of Long Beach, CA.  Half-ways home I started crying and subsequently sobbing uncontrollably - almost convulsively. 

Suddenly, Marty (my deceased partner) appeared in the form of a head and shoulder view outlined by many points of light.  I do not know what my body was doing (walking, crying or standing still), but I remember becoming totally quiet.  We looked at each other for what seemed a long time (maybe 10 minutes).  I did not feel sad nor was I crying.  It was a meeting of complete logic.  After the approx. 10 minutes, Marty seemed to take hold of my head and slowly move it 90 away from his face toward a bright light. 

I understood this gesture as telling me that I needed to re-direct my attention to another phase or person in my life.  Upon the end of this phenomenon, I found myself walking slowly and well-controlled to my home, without any feelings of sorrow. 

My life did in fact change in a very beautiful and exciting way with the person that I met a week later.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     Weird and "unreal" nature of experience because of a sudden change in emotional disposition.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    While I and Marty where looking at each other.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   Sudden change from extreme sorrow to absolute quiet and peace.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   My sorrow and tears completely blurred my vision and suddenly was clear and sharp.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   There was no sound in the vision nor anywhere around me, even though there were people and traffic.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   None.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
As described above (many points of light).

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   My beloved partner Marty.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (life after death)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly lifes meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly lifes difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I believe in God and His unending love for me and all things and I have never felt like wasting my time on "evil" or "devil".  The vision reinforced my belief.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience     

My experience directly resulted in:   No changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   No  

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No       

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  about 1 month later.  There was some positive reaction.  I shared mostly for my own sake.  I did not wish to show off.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   I had a vision brought about by an extremely stressful event, which indicated to me that there was a God and that He cared for me.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real  

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No     

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes