I fell asleep unaware of me sleeping in my bed, I "woke" up in an apartment sitting at an old white tin table and folding chair. I looked down at the table and tapped it with my fingers and chuckled, then I looked down at my arms and hands and started clapping them and touching them in disbelief and excitement. As I was doing this test of awareness on myself I suddenly heard a tinking noise. Tink Tink Tink. It drew my attention in it's direction and there stood my grandfather at the stove stirring something in a green medium sized metal pan with a metal spoon. ( I've never recalled my grandfather cooking or anything. nanny and grumpy were traditionalists). Anyways, I instantly asked him where he had been and I was so happy to see him. He responded that he has been here watching us the whole time. Ironically, now that I think about it I never moved from the chair. I asked him what he was doing here and he looked out the window to my right and said, "waiting for your nanny." My grandmother passed on before him. I looked out the window and there was a storm rolling in. Dark clouds, no rain yet but I could feel the vibration of thunder. When I turned back and looked at him, he told me he wished he could be there for my daughter growing up but that he was watching how beautiful she was growing up to be. He then went on to say he had some things to tell me about the family and at that moment I was aware of my consciousness slipping it started with my peripheral vision. It started to get blurry and it faded into the center of my vision and as it was happening I told him "I'm  fading I'm fading quick tell me tell me" and that was the last of my memory.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

The sensation that I knew I was somewhere else but I was consciously aware of my existence in this place. I was clapping my hands and touching my arms in disbelief that I knew I was there.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    described above in detail. clinging of pan with spoon, his voice.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  externally

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           similar

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           not to my knowledge. I was alone in my dark room and nothing else was going on in house. I ended up getting experiences so frequently I had to turn on TV to change frequency so I could at least sleep at night. I still to this day sleep with TV on with no sound but at the time of this experience nothing was on. the past year the one time I've tried to sleep at night without TV on I was "visited by something or someone".

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

My memory evades me on color or type of clothes but it was familiar.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            solid

            How much of the deceased did you see?       all

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       he appeared the age he died.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            healthy but he had a sadness to his eyes

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           not to my knowledge

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        not sure now.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         gradual ending... sudden beginning

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes   sadness and longing. but he seemed to have key information to tell me that I was unable to receive.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I have dreams that are subconscious and I have experiences that are conscious. this one had a specific awareness level to it that was intense.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes

When I started to fade away from its reality it was as if a dream during the moments I was losing grasp on it. towards the end.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           excitement, sadness, fear of the unknown.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Uncertain

It helped me in a way but I regretted not knowing the rest of the message. not being able to hang on long enough

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      feeling alone was the worst. The best part was understanding that I'm actually not alone even if it is with other entities I relate.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes the pot he was stirring in was him making nectar for the humming birds for my grandmother. that was the only form of cooking he ever did.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            curiosity, excitement, being alone at the thought of being outcaste by telling anyone my feelings. Slight fear of unknown.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

the best I could describe it is a void of sound except his voice. the clinging of pan and vibrational feeling of thunder. aside from that the air seemed stagnant or stale.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       Somewhat but the memory was faded when I lost grasp of it.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

I've possessed something I choose to not put into words as long as I can remember.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     towards the end of experience when I lost grasp of alternate reality

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?          No  not at this experience but others I have.

Did you see a light?           Yes  immediately before I "woke" up in that scene. I assumed the light was from the window to my right.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I have been deemed eccentric or strange. weird even crazy. But I could see curiosity in their eyes.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

I've had many experiences at which I can not explain in detail.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

this questionnaire made it easier to express. 

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    not that I can think of