I was sleeping in bed, laying on my side. All of a sudden I was awakened by someone hard up against my back and then being squeezed very very tightly which made me frightened.  I couldn't imagine what was happening and tried to call out "help," but no sound came out.  I thought of calling out to my son sleeping in the next room, but thought that since he had his fan on he would not hear me.  The next thing I remember is seeing a hand and my trying to put my hand on this hand and it went right through.  Then he said, "It's almost 3:00 in the morning."  I tried so hard to get up and go downstairs to see the time, but I just couldn't.  When I did finally get up and see the time it was 5:45 a.m.  It gave me the weirdest feeling all the next day and I told my son and daughter about this experience.  It certainly had a "wow" factor to it.  It made me feel good that I felt I had contact with my deceased spouse and felt bad that initially I was so frightened.  I'm not sure about what actually transpired.  I've read about OBEs and am wondering if that's what it was--an out of body experience where I went to visit him? But yet I know I was in my bed and it was not a dream.  I would like to know what other experiencers think of this and if it has happened to them.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? 

No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:  

Very clearly during the experience described above, I heard my deceased spouse say, "It's almost 3:00 in the morning."

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? 

outside of me

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?          

It was similar

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?          

NO, absolutely not.

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?  

No.

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           

Yes

I felt him up against my back while laying on my side in bed.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?  

Somewhat familiar.

            Was anything communicated by the touch? 

Just was squeezed very hard.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? 

NO.

Did you see the deceased?        

Uncertain

I only saw his hand.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            N/A

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Just his hand.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       N/A

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            N/A

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?     

No

How long did the experience last?       

I'm not sure.  It did not seem like a long time.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

The beginning of the experience when I felt him up against my back was very sudden; the end more gradual as when I saw his hand and heard him speak.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         

I know I felt him against me.  It was almost like his slamming into me and then the squeezing was very real and scary.  I know I was not sleeping because I tried to call out and was thinking that my son could not hear me because he had his fan on in his bedroom.  It was definitely not a dream.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  

No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

Frightened at first; then a good feeling.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Yes

Made me believe that my deceased spouse is still with me in spirit and that made me feel somewhat better about his dying, but it lasted for a few days and then I wanted it to happen again. I felt so bad about being frightened and wanted to let him know if he would be there again, I would not be frightened.  I would be so happy.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

Being with my husband again was the best part.  The worst part was after a couple of days had gone by and I was desperate for it to happen again.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?        

Yes                 Describe:     

I have become much more spiritual.

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?           
             
Life-changing                 
             
Joy      
             
It gives me hope there is an afterlife and I will see my spouse again when I leave here.         

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I now believe there is a life after death.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     Before the death of my husband and this experience, I just thought that there is probably a heaven where we go after we die, but I was afraid of death and really didn't like to think or talk about it.  Now it's very different.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Fear and then happiness

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

Maybe my experience was an Out of body experience?

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Yes, I shared this experience with family, my counselor and a grief group.  My family was happy I told them about this and gave them hope their father is still with us.  My grief counselor and grief group believed my experience and shared some of their own.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes