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Experience description:

My mother died from liver failure due to alcoholism at age 59. She had a very tragic life - in addition to alcoholism, she also suffered from mental illness ever since I was a very small child.

While sleeping my mother came to visit me in a dream. She contacted me over the telephone. She said "Hi, how are you". I remember thinking, wow, my mother is dead and she is calling me!  I knew this conversation was very important, very serious. I felt very excited and nervous. I pressed my ear to the phone and was listening intently to dead space between us. It seemed important to NOT acknowledge that she was dead. I said, "Hi Mom, how are you?" My mother said "I am fine. I am getting better. There are people here who are helping me to get better." I told her that was good, and I asked her very tentatively "Mom, do you know Jesus Christ?". She said very reassuringly and seriously, "Oh yes, He is the One Most High". I said that was good and then she said that she had to go now (the impression I got was that she had to go back to the people who were helping her) and I said "Ok, bye Mom." And that was the end of the conversation.

While talking to her I could see her in my minds eye - she was standing talking into the phone and was wearing a white hospital gown. She seemed to be the same age as she was when she died, but she was not mentally ill anymore - but she did sound sad and weary.  I got the impression that the ones who were helping her heal were helping to heal her mind and her spirit. I did not think she was in heaven, I had the feeling she was in someplace like a spiritual hospital.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? 

No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:  

I heard her voice over the phone. I heard dead space (crackling) on the phone when we weren't talking.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? 

The voice originated outside me.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?          

I knew the voice was my mother's voice. But it sounded more "healed" than my  mother's normal voice.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?          

NO

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?  

NO

Did you see the deceased?        

Yes

I saw my mother in my mind's eye as I was speaking to her on the phone. She looked like my mother, but less agitated and more calm than my normally was. She was dressed in a white hospital gown.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            She appeared clearly.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       I saw my mother from the top of her legs up - she was standing behind a counter. I could not see her legs or feet.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       Same age.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            My mother was healthier than when she was alive - at the time of my mother's death she was bedridden and was not aware of her surroundings. She was yellow from liver damage. In the dream she looked better - she was standing up and was lucid.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           NO

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

Sudden beginning and end.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

Yes

My mother seemed weary - like she had been through a long and exhausting battle (her life, her diseases) and was just starting to recover.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? 

She told me she believed in Jesus Christ and she called Him the One Most High. This was helpful for me because it gave me hope that she might be on her way to a better place.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         

I dream all the time - this "dream" was very different which makes me accept that it was not just a dream - that it was actually a communication from my mother while asleep.  The intensity of emotion - the level of awareness of - the clarity of our communication - all make me believe it was real and not a dream.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  

No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

During the experience I had a heightened state of physical and emotional awareness - I knew what was happening - I knew I was talking to the dead and I knew that it was very unusual to be talking to the dead. I wanted to hear everything she had to say clearly because I was, after all, talking with someone who was on the other side. I was  a bit frightened and felt a huge sense of the enormity of what was happening.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Uncertain

I am not sure...maybe just some relief that she was doing better because while alive my mother was in so much physical and emotional pain.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

Best part - hearing that my Mother was getting better and there were people helping her. Worst part? Not sure - maybe that it was such a brief conversation.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?        

No      

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?

Other belief.  My experience makes me laugh a little because I think it is funny that I asked my mother about Jesus - Jesus is something we never spoke about while my mother was alive and of all the questions I could have asked her I find it odd that I chose to ask her that question! And I was happy that she knew who I was talking about and responded directly to my question. It was funny that she called him The One Most High - I never refer to Him this way.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I think now that maybe some people have to go to a special place before they can go to heaven. I have heard this place referred to as "purgatory". In my experience, that place was like a hospital, but a special hospital where you get better spiritually and mentally. It was definitely a place to go to do some important work before you could go to heaven. And I believe there are beings whose job it is to help others - to nurse them back to spiritual and mental health.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     It confirmed for me the existence of Jesus as the Son of God. My mother referred to Him as The One Most High, which is a phrase I have never used (before or since this experience) to refer to Jesus.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Just awe at what I had just experienced. I bit relieved to hear my mother was being taken care of and was getting better.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

Altered space? Maybe the sense that I had that there was "dead space" between us on the phone. A sense that that space between us on the phone was the division between life and death, this world and the next world. It was a space I cannot cross. It seemed like we needed the phone to bridge the gap between our worlds.

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     My family members believe me, because we are all open minded about unusual experiences. I think some people think I am nuts, some people are interested but don't think it was really a visit from my mother. I don't think anyone was influenced by my experience.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

No near death or out of body experiences. I have had several experiences I would describe as "spiritual" - information that was provided to me in answer to prayers.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes