My mother died from liver failure due to alcoholism at age 59. She had a very tragic life - in addition to alcoholism, she also suffered from mental illness ever since I was a very small child.
While sleeping my mother came to visit me in a dream. She contacted me over the telephone. She said "Hi, how are you". I remember thinking, wow, my mother is dead and she is calling me! I knew this conversation was very important, very serious. I felt very excited and nervous. I pressed my ear to the phone and was listening intently to dead space between us. It seemed important to NOT acknowledge that she was dead. I said, "Hi Mom, how are you?" My mother said "I am fine. I am getting better. There are people here who are helping me to get better." I told her that was good, and I asked her very tentatively "Mom, do you know Jesus Christ?". She said very reassuringly and seriously, "Oh yes, He is the One Most High". I said that was good and then she said that she had to go now (the impression I got was that she had to go back to the people who were helping her) and I said "Ok, bye Mom." And that was the end of the conversation.
While talking to her I could see her in my minds eye - she was standing talking into the phone and was wearing a white hospital gown. She seemed to be the same age as she was when she died, but she was not mentally ill anymore - but she did sound sad and weary. I got the impression that the ones who were helping her heal were helping to heal her mind and her spirit. I did not think she was in heaven, I had the feeling she was in someplace like a spiritual hospital.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I heard her voice over the phone. I heard dead space (crackling) on the phone when we weren't talking.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? The voice originated outside me.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? I knew the voice was my mother's voice. But it sounded more "healed" than my mother's normal voice.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? NO
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? NO
Did you see the deceased? Yes
I saw my mother in my mind's eye as I was speaking to her on the phone. She looked like my mother, but less agitated and more calm than my normally was. She was dressed in a white hospital gown.
How clearly did the deceased appear? She appeared clearly.
How much of the deceased did you see? I saw my mother from the top of her legs up - she was standing behind a counter. I could not see her legs or feet.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? Same age.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? My mother was healthier than when she was alive - at the time of my mother's death she was bedridden and was not aware of her surroundings. She was yellow from liver damage. In the dream she looked better - she was standing up and was lucid.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? NO
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Sudden beginning and end.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
My mother seemed weary - like she had been through a long and exhausting battle (her life, her diseases) and was just starting to recover.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? She told me she believed in Jesus Christ and she called Him the One Most High. This was helpful for me because it gave me hope that she might be on her way to a better place.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I dream all the time - this "dream" was very different which makes me accept that it was not just a dream - that it was actually a communication from my mother while asleep. The intensity of emotion - the level of awareness of - the clarity of our communication - all make me believe it was real and not a dream.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: During the experience I had a heightened state of physical and emotional awareness - I knew what was happening - I knew I was talking to the dead and I knew that it was very unusual to be talking to the dead. I wanted to hear everything she had to say clearly because I was, after all, talking with someone who was on the other side. I was a bit frightened and felt a huge sense of the enormity of what was happening.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain
I am not sure...maybe just some relief that she was doing better because while alive my mother was in so much physical and emotional pain.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Best part - hearing that my Mother was getting better and there were people helping her. Worst part? Not sure - maybe that it was such a brief conversation.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?