Heidi T's ADC
As I was
lying on the bed, I noticed a bright light forming near my doorway a few feet
from the foot of the bed. It was a swirling colorful mass of light and it slowly
moved (appearing to float) from the doorway to the foot of the bed and then over
the bed, until it stopped above me. I was scared frozen by it and closed my
eyes. I felt someone kiss my lips (closed-lip kiss) and I opened my eyes and I
was immediately no longer in a meditative state and the light "mass" was gone.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
A closed-lip kiss.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Familiar. I usually only hug family members, but my Great Grandma and I had a habit of greeting each other with a kiss. She was the only person with whom I had this greeting, then and now. And it also seemed appropriate, later when I thought about the experience, that she would communicate with me in that way. A goodbye kiss, if you will, as if she and I were saying good bye during one of our regular visits.
Was anything communicated by the touch? Good bye. See above.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.
Did you see the deceased? Uncertain
The thing I saw was a swirling mass of energy/light. No human form. But the kiss communicated a human message (good bye).
How clearly did the deceased appear? Thick, swirly, somewhat transparent.
How much of the deceased did you see? No human form.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? NA.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? NA.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? Not that I can think of.
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? A few seconds. Maybe 30 seconds.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Beginning was gradual. End was abrupt because I closed my eyes out of fear and when I opened them, it was gone.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
With the kiss came a very strange sense of calm and joy. It brought happy tears to my eyes.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was probably real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I was awake when it happened and my emotions were very real.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Yes
A swirling mass of light just seems dreamlike somehow.
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I was sad as I was meditating after hearing about her death. When I saw the light mass I grew fearful. After the kiss I was happy and joyful and satisfied -- a feeling of everything being alright and as it should be.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? See above.
Did you see a light? Yes
The thing I saw was a swirling light, not a tunnel-type light
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes