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Ivan BL ADC

Experience description:  

My father passed away almost 3 years ago, and about 4 months after his passing, I came back to my mum s house to live with her for a while. During one night while sleeping I had the feeling he was touching my head, never felt before someone's hand in my body whose touch connected me directly to the person who was touching me, I wasn't completely awake but I know it was not a dream either, I was in my room in a kind of state of meditation we could say, when we are in between being awake and asleep. After I felt his hand, I started hearing his voice, calling my name, as if he wanted something from me. I heard his voice repeated times but carried on sleeping afterwards, as not giving importance to it. The day after while I was having my breakfast in the kitchen my mum came in the kitchen, she looked scared and heard her speaking alone. When I asked her what happened, she said 'I heard your father s voice calling me during the night'.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No


Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes

Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I heard his voice several times, calling my name

Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? I heard a voice and think came from inside of me, but I am not sure I do remember it was loud enough to make me remember it the day after

If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? was exactly my dad s voice

Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no, it was during the night everything was silent and calm

Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes

I felt my dad s hand touching my head

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? familiar, I felt as if my dad s hand touched the back of my head

Was anything communicated by the touch? no, just the feeling it was his hand

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no because the flat is in a very calm borough and there is no noise during the night, other than that, the voice I heard was clearly the same voice he had in life

Did you see the deceased? No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

How long did the experience last? cannot tell, my I think it was only for some minutes or seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? it was sudden I think but since I was not utterly awake I don't remember

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? No

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was probably real

Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I felt it was my brain cheating on me, but since my mum told the same thing the day after, I started feeling it was real

Was the experience dream like in any way? No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I wasn't afraid, I was aware of feeling he was there but didn't have any feelings

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain

actually I tend to believe there is something, but I still am skeptical in a way

What was the best and worst part of your experience? I wouldn't be able to establish a best or worst part, it was just a new feeling

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? fear, I was afraid to go to bed again cause I didn't know what could I feel or if I could feel his voice again

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? Yes

I had the experience the same night my mum had it, so 2 people experienced the same

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No

Did you become aware of future events? No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? No

Did you see a light? No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No

Have you shared this experience with others?

Yes some believe it, some not, in general they tend to think it was my mind only

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? no

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No