I was grieving the passing on of my Mother. It was pretty sudden. She was not well for about a month - and the doctors were saying it was because she had high blood pressure, then it was a mild form of diabetes. One day she was really so sick, when we brought her to the doctors - he told us to take her to the hospital. When she arrived there they admitted her right away. She went through a battery of tests which confirmed that she was pretty well full of cancer - in the lungs, lymph nodes, liver, abdomen - etc. etc. Her body died quickly - she was worsening each day.
She was unhappy about 'dying' and at one point even told me "Janet, I'm not ready to die." I was with her as much as possible. She only lived a little over 2 weeks in that hospital, and I was with her 24/7 for the last week. I was with her when she passed on. I was actually playing with her hair and gazing at her when she took her last breath. After the funeral (which we made VERY personal for her - yet small) it was about 1 and 1/2 weeks later.
I was back home and asleep when she came to me. She was wearing a flowing white dress / nightgown - and she was crying. She said to me " Janet, It happened so fast." and she hugged me. I told her "Yes Mom, it did happen too fast. But I know you wouldn't have wanted to suffer a long time." She pulled back and looked at me, and stopped crying.
About 2 months after that, she came to me again in a dream. She looked SO peaceful and happy. The visit seemed SO REAL I actually said to her "Mom, is this a dream? Or is this real?"
She said to me "Janet, this is a dream. But I can visit you this way. Is it okay if I visit you this way?" I said "YES PLEASE visit me every night!!!" She looked at me with a very knowing and loving look. I asked her "Mom, I want to ask you a question. Why are you here? Why did you not go towards the light?" She said "I can't answer that Janet." Then, I saw a tunnel - it was like a swirling tunnel - and she went towards it and walked through it. I guess she came back to say that she was happy now. She did not seem happy or at peace the first time she visited me. But the second time - she was so peaceful - I have never seen her that peaceful when she was alive.
I have had other ADC's as well - but these two stick out in my mind the most.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: First that she was unhappy because it happened too fast, and I don't believe she was ready to pass over.
Then later to tell me she was visiting me. She showed me at that point that she is now at peace.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? She spoke to me.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? It was my Mother's voice
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No.
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? She wore a white dress - it was flowing - almost like a nightgown. Her hair looked really nice, curled and done up and she looked about 20 years younger than when she passed away - and she was healthy looking.
How clearly did the deceased appear? She appeared to be semi-solid.
How much of the deceased did you see? All of her.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? 20 years younger - healthy and looked good.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? When my Mom passed away she was very sick with Cancer and was very thin. When she came to visit me, she looked healthy and back to her normal weight.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No. I was asleep.
How long did the experience last? 1st one, about 2 or 3 minutes. 2nd one, maybe 4 minutes.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? I would say both gradual, because she came into a dream I was already having.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
1st visit - very sad and upset. 2nd visit - a 'knowing' feeling, calm and at peace.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Not really. I asked her why she had not gone towards the light - and she said "I can't tell you that."
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I just FEEL it was real. It was SO real, I even said right out in my dream "Mom, is this real? Or is it a dream?"
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
It was a dream UNTIL my Mother showed up - then it did not feel like a dream. It felt like she was really there with me.
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I was upset during the first experience - I knew she wasn't ready to be there on the other side. I was very relieved after the second visit.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
Yes after the second experience. I was very relieved and I don't worry about her like I did after the first experience.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? best - when my mom gave me the peaceful and knowing look. worst - when she was upset about dying so quickly.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain Describe: In a way - I am more interested in LOVE than material items.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Uncertain I have always believed in life after death. I just think now that I have experienced ADC's I am learning more about life after death.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Uncertain I am doing more reading about ADC's and the afterlife now. I am learning.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain I am wondering about the tunnel I saw. I have read about this in other ADC's AFTER I had this experience.
Did you see a light? Uncertain
Uncertain if there was a light in the tunnel. More of a 'swirling' motion kind of look to it.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes My daughter and some friends believe me. I have had mostly positive feedback - although I'm sure some people must think I am off my rocker!
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? Yes
Yes, one other web site.
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? I have had other experiences I should write you about them sometime.