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Jennifer B's ADC

Experience description:  

In June of 2011, my brother was in a comma- vegetative state after being revived following cardiac arrest in May of 2011. I had a very vivid dream in which he appeared to me wearing a yellow T-shirt. He looked very happy and healthy around his current age. He told me that he was ok and not to worry about him. We hugged and I said "I'm so glad you're ok".  

The day he passed away on 11/25, I went to bed that night. In the early morning, I had a dream of vision in which I saw him. He looked at me and we recognized each other but nothing was said. Then, he faded or evaporated and was gone. His image was immediately replaced by this extremely bright white light. Then I woke up.  

A few days after that, I was walking out of the grocery store and saw a very clearly defined, bright rainbow that was in a complete arc from one end of the horizon to the other. There was a fainter one behind it. I could not help but notice, but did not think anything more of it. A couple days after that, my dad asked me if I had ever read any of my brother's poetry. I said "no". He then showed me one of his poems. In the poem it said "when you enter into the brightness, send me a rainbow to shine through the bleakness (of this life)" He wrote it to a very close friend of his that passed away several years ago.  

Also that same week I was walking downstairs to a friend's basement. He was listening to the radio. Just as I walked in there, my brother's favorite song from his childhood that I used to tease him about liking came on the radio. The friend told me it was my brother reaching out to me. I was not sure, but a few minutes later I kissed the small urn I have with his ashes in it and said "Wherever you are, I hope you are happy". I then went to the store. There was music playing in the store, which soon ended. Then a song by Eric Clapton came on called "If I Saw You In Heaven" - as if in answer to what I told my brother.  

On the day of his memorial service, I was sad because there was no music played and he loved music. My mother passed away several years prior to this and "The Rose" was played at her funeral. The evening of my brother's service I walked into a convenience store and music was playing. The song that came on was "The Rose". Maybe a coincidence, but I choose to believe otherwise.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

The only appearance was in the 2 dreams I had. His appearance stuck me because he was wearing a yellow T-shirt. He always wore earth tones and dark colors like brown and black. He also looked much happier like he was when he was younger; only he was his current age. It was all lit up behind him and around him.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Solid

            How much of the deceased did you see?       From the waist up

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       Appeared to be the age at which he passed away.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Very healthy and very happy. Yes, he had been very ill and depressed the year prior to this.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           There were too many signs that took place for this to just be all coincidence.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

No for all experiences. Both of the 2 dreams were very vivid as if I was awake. They were not dreamlike and very short.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Happy when I had the first dream. I felt sad after the second dream because I knew he was gone and I would not see him in this lifetime anymore. Happy during the other experiences. The one in which I heard the song "If I Saw You From Heaven" touched my heart and I became tearful.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I never knew there was such a thing as "after death Communication" before these experiences. It strengthened my belief in life after death.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part was the first dream and seeing/hearing my brother. The worst part was seeing his fade into the light, because it let me know that he had truly passed on and I knew I would no longer see him in this lifetime.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
   Yes     Death seems less scary and life after death seems more certain to me.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Uncertain      It strengthened my belief that there is life after death.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           
Not as much grief. Comforted and reassured to think that he is ok, alive and in a better place, and that someday I will see him again.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           Yes

In the dreams. In the first one there was light behind him and around him. In the second dream, he faded and then I saw all this white light.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     My dad thought it could all just be coincidence and dreams only. Some friends and relatives said they believed this all this was him reaching out to let me know he's ok.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes