Jess S's ADC
My wife and I lived together by ourselves in our own house for more than 10 years after my two children got married and had lived in their own houses.
My wife had a sudden death due to pneumonia in midnight of June 1, 2007 (pronounced dead at 12:02 of June 2). No goodbyes were said; no last words. In fact, hours before her death we (with my daughter and her husband) were joking and planning to convert our big house into a boarding house as soon as she gets well. But death came unannounced.
After her funeral (June 10) my daughter allowed her 11 year old son (my grandson) to sleep with me so that I could have a companion every night. I always had a lampshade with a low-power bulb switched on so that my grandson could find his way to the toilet just in case he would like to go there in the middle of the night.
On our third night together (June 12), my grandson deliberately switched off the light because he said the lamp was too bright during that night and he could not sleep.
I woke up about 4:00 a.m. (I checked my timepiece) to find that the room was very dark. I thought there was a power failure during that time. I looked towards the switch of the lamp near the door with the intention of switching the lamp on. Just then I noticed a very white mist (like a cloud) forming and becoming bigger. In a few moments it had covered the entire wall where the door was situated. I got up and stared at it attentively because my attention was caught by several figures in it, all dressed in white. I can see only their faces because their white clothing blended with the white cloud in the background. Then I began to recognize the face of my wife in the middle of the other faces. I then realized that she was accompanied by several angels! I can clearly see the tips of some of their wings (our usual idea of angels!) as they were flapped outside of the cloud. Then all of them began to raise one of their hands and started to wave (as if in goodbye) to me. I Stared at the sight for as long as five minutes(?).
After this period of time the cloud and the figures slowly dissolved into the darkness, and again the whole room was in total darkness. I got up and switch on the light. I felt a very strange feeling of happiness (although I was in grief) and my body was very light> I did not know by then what the vision as all about. Then I began to look for a meaning or message in what I saw.
After a while I checked my timepiece again. It was 4:30, and in a few more seconds my alarm clock (which was set on this time) went off.
Was this experience
difficult to express in words?
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? She was very well, no sign of illness. She was smiling a bit.
How clearly did the deceased appear? Somewhat transparent
How much of the deceased did you see? The face
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? No. She was at that age that I always picture her to be - about mid 40. This was the picture we placed near her coffin during the wake and the funeral.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? Her picture of being weak and sickly were not noticeable. In fact she appeared very healthy.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No. She had no mounted picture in the room
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? For about five minutes.
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Both end and beginning of the experience were gradual
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
I can sensed mixed emotions. She appeared happy outwardly but I can sense that there was something she would like to tell me.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Yes. But not in this experience. It was from the experiences of my son-in-law. She indicated (by scratching his foot in his dream) that their was something in the foot of her bed. Surely, at the foot of the bed, under the mattress, statements of bank deposits (in huge amounts) in my my and those of our son and daughter.
Likewise, she made
available to my son-in-law the document need for the enrollment of her grandson.
My son-in-law previously asked her help to locate the document (which could not
be located before).
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: It was real (in the higher realm of existence) because I believe it was a case of a spirit (of the dead) communicating with another spirit (of the living).
(scientifically), there is NO explanation for this.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I felt warm, very light, and happy.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
I can control my emotions. I do not cry often.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? No worst part, except I started to wept when the vision disappeared.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Describe: I become less aware of people surrounding me because concern about their feelings, especially their problems. I become indifferent to many things. I AM NOT AFRAID OF DEATH.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
Did the experience
give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.? Yes We grieve because of separation; we must be happy for the
departed because she is happy with her Creator.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes The experience of my son-in-law (see explanations above)
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Still grieving but can control my emotions now.
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
I could not tell whether it was daytime of nighttime.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
I knew instantly that I should not cry during that time because my wife was with a perfect company.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
When I was a kid I felt that I dreamt of traveling into far away places which became familiar to me later on.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
In my deepest grief I could physically feel my body sometimes. I did not also care whether my body was there or not. At time I forgot to breathe.
Did you meet or see
any other beings other than the deceased?
One time (in the past, when I was seriously ill) I saw my father inside a jeepney. The jeepney stopped and waited for me. I did not take the ride.
Did you see a light? Yes
My wife (in the above explanations) was surrounded by a bright light. In the still pictures that we took several blobs of light were seen hovering above the alter during her funeral.
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? Yes
I could not tell the exact location but I am sure they were outside of the location I was in during those times.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes They believed because they (my son and daughter and their spouses) were also waiting for signs from their mom.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? I want to have a face-to-face contact with my departed wife.
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Uncertain
Sometimes I felt floating in the air. Many times I felt strange emotions of being very happy for no reasons at all.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
It was a very recent experience. (I want it repeated)
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. This questionnaire is too long.