I was aware all day of a mindful thought that I needed to write. Many times during the day, the impressions to get a pen and paper and write came to mind. The presence of this thought was strong on my mind, but I ignored it all day choosing to realize it was a demanding thought pattern not leaving me all day. I remember thinking that my family would think I was full of myself if I tried to give them a poem or something that I had wrote after the death in the family had brought such sorrow of losing such a young loved one. Finally, after putting off this need to "write this" all day, that afternoon, before the children arrived home from school, the thought was loud in my mind "IF YOU ARE GOING TO WRITE THIS GET A PENCIL AND PAPER AND WRITE THIS NOW". I could no longer refuse to write, I turned into my child's bedroom and retrieved a notebook and pencil returning to my own bed, which I had been putting clean sheets on at the time, and I began to write with thinking.

The words flowed onto the paper, without thought, they were not my words. I wrote so fast. Yes, a beautiful sight of heaven. Which was followed with personal lines of information for others. Those, lines of personal note is what gave the evidence of this being a real event. After the poetry about heaven, one suggestion noted was to "look under the seat of the car for something for Maria". Maria, my nephews fianc', had just the day before called me. So, I called her back. Told her what I had just experienced, about going to look under the seat of my nephews car.

She then told me- her Dad and brother had just cleaned everything out of Jeff's car that was removable- the day before my experience. But, she sent her Dad and brother back to where the car was being stored, and they looked under the driver's side seat. There, tucked up under the seat, a little brown paper bag. The little brown paper bag, found under the seat of the wrecked car, had a receipt for November 20, 1994. That night, 11/20/94, my nephew and his fianc' had been out together doing some shopping for Christmas. They had looked at jewelry together. After taking her home that evening, Jeff had gone back and purchased a little pinky ring, Maria had tried on while they were shopping earlier that day. That pinky ring, was found, only, yes only because of the writing I almost chose not to write. There was also some personal gifts for his parents, that were found boxed up in his closet, because of the personal notes at the end of the writing of heaven impressed on my mind that day. 12/20/94 Yes, the family was hopeful, because of the ring and gifts otherwise for his mom and dad, being found only because of this writing, we do have a poem about heaven, too!

Was this experience difficult to express in words? 

Yes

It made me feel like I did not want to make others think I was special because I could receive such a precious message.

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?           

Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           

No

Did you see the deceased?        

No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?     

No

How long did the experience last?       

All day until follow thru to "write"

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

For 3 weeks, me and his fianc' received poems which amounted to 4 separate writings.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

No

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? 

Yes, the details of items that have since been found and treasured. The ring that was found because of my writings, would never have been found. The wrecked car has since been buried and nothing would have been found if this had not happened for me to know these things.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         

The evidence of items under the seat of the car was and still is proof to me that I did not make up the words that I wrote down with pencil and paper so impressed upon me that day 12/20/1994

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  

No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

During the writing, I did not think, I almost scribbled I wrote so fast. The words just ran out of the pencil onto the paper.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Yes

For a loved one to be able to reach across the divide between physical and spirit, was phenomenal for me. He truly gave!

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes above mentioned

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I was elated! Surprised! In awe! Blessed!

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

The little brown paper bag, found under the seat of the wrecked car, had a receipt for November 20, 1994. That night, 11/20/94, my nephew and his fianc' had been out together doing some shopping for Christmas. They had looked at jewelry together. After taking her home that evening, Jeff had gone back and purchased a little pinky ring, Maria had tried on while they were shopping earlier that day. That pinky ring, was found, only, yes only because of the writing I almost chose not to write. There was also some personal gifts for his parents, that were found boxed up in his closet, because of the personal notes at the end of the writing of heaven impressed on my mind that day. 12/20/94

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     The proof was in the ring being found. Others could only see it for what it was.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes