Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Familiar, as when a father hugs a child. My dad wasn't much of a hugger when he was alive, except for goodbyes.
Was anything communicated by the touch? Love and goodbye
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Did you see the deceased? Yes
He was younger looking, probably around 40-50. He was dressed in clothing that he would have worn in life, a tan work shirt and khaki pants.
How clearly did the deceased appear? He was very solid looking.
How much of the deceased did you see? From head to toe
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? He was younger looking, probably around 40-50.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be? He appeared to be very healthy. Also, in life he had suffered severe burns to his arms and hands, resulting in a number of skin grafts. I didn't notice these burns during my experience.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
How long did the experience last? Probably around 20 minutes
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? I was suddenly just "there" in the experience and it ended when we hugged goodbye.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
He seemed happy and content.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was probably real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: Normally I don't dream about my dad so vividly. When he usually shows up in my dreams, it's in a very abstract way and even I can detect the symbolism. The only "symbolism" in this experience was hugging my dad goodbye.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Far too vivid.
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Crying, happy, not wanting him to leave.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain
My dad's illness was a long one so in a way most of the family was prepared for his eventual passing. I didn't cry the night he died because I was exhausted and almost relieved. This experience let some of the emotion I had held back out and was very beneficial.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Best and worst was saying goodbye to my dad.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Woke up crying, wondering if it was real and glad to have had it.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
The experience was so vivid and real, I wonder if I was astral projecting in some way.
Did you see a
The entire area was brightly lit, as if inside a sunlit cloud.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Uncertain
I've had vivid dreams that felt very real. Once I was dreaming that I had a crumpled piece of paper in my hand which felt like it was really there. I woke up and for the first few seconds of wakefulness, I could still feel that piece of paper. Another dream was rated "R" so I won't relate it here, but it felt REAL and other people I did not know were participants in it.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes