Experience description:
The
surroundings were very vague, but bright, like being inside a sunlit cloud. My
father appeared in front of me, very solid looking but much younger than when he
passed. At the end we hugged goodbye and this feeling was very physical. Then I
woke up, crying and very happy that I had finally had a chance to say goodbye.
Was
this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did
you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the
deceased?
Yes
We
hugged
Was the
touch familiar or unfamiliar?
Familiar, as
when a father hugs a child. My dad wasn't much of a hugger when he was alive,
except for goodbyes.
Was anything communicated by the touch?
Love and
goodbye
Is there any
possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
No
Did
you see the deceased?
Yes
He
was younger looking, probably around 40-50. He was dressed in clothing that he
would have worn in life, a tan work shirt and khaki pants.
How clearly
did the deceased appear?
He
was very solid looking.
How much of
the deceased did you see?
From
head to toe
Did the
deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
He
was younger looking, probably around 40-50.
How healthy
did the deceased appear to be?
He
appeared to be very healthy. Also, in life he had suffered severe burns to his
arms and hands, resulting in a number of skin grafts. I didn't notice these
burns during my experience.
Is there any
possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
No
How
long did the experience last?
Probably
around 20 minutes
Was
the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
I was
suddenly just "there" in the experience and it ended when we hugged goodbye.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
He
seemed happy and content.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
probably real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real
or not real:
Normally I
don't dream about my dad so vividly. When he usually shows up in my dreams, it's
in a very abstract way and even I can detect the symbolism. The only "symbolism"
in this experience was hugging my dad goodbye.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Far
too vivid.
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:
Crying,
happy, not wanting him to leave.
Was
there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Uncertain
My
dad's illness was a long one so in a way most of the family was prepared for his
eventual passing. I didn't cry the night he died because I was exhausted and
almost relieved. This experience let some of the emotion I had held back out and
was very beneficial.
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
Best and worst
was saying goodbye to my dad.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Woke up crying,
wondering if it was real and glad to have had it.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
The
experience was so vivid and real, I wonder if I was astral projecting in some
way.
Did you see a
light?
Uncertain
The
entire area was brightly lit, as if inside a sunlit cloud.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
Have
you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or
web site?
No
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or
other spiritual event?
Uncertain
I've
had vivid dreams that felt very real. Once I was dreaming that I had a crumpled
piece of paper in my hand which felt like it was really there. I woke up and for
the first few seconds of wakefulness, I could still feel that piece of paper.
Another dream was rated "R" so I won't relate it here, but it felt REAL and
other people I did not know were participants in it.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes