Karen F's ADC
I was driving to work
the morning after the day of my Granny's funeral. My heart was broken and I had
hardly been able to keep from crying since her death. All of a sudden, I FELT
her. She filled me up and I was overwhelmed with her presence and warmth and
love, and I KNEW without any doubt that it was her. She filled me, was all
around me...that's the best way I can describe it. Then she left, and it felt
like a blanket being pulled off of me going up and to the right. When she was
gone, all of the pain and grief from her death went with
her. I have not shed a tear, nor felt pain or grief, since that very
moment. I do still miss her dearly, but there is no emotional pain from her
loss. The entire experience lasted probably less than 30 seconds.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes
This part is hard to describe...because it was everywhere... inside and out. I was enveloped by it.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? It was very familiar... I KNEW it was her. I could just feel her.
Was anything communicated by the touch? Much love and comfort and that she was ok.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? 15 to 30 seconds
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? The beginning it was very sudden and unexpected and took my breath away. The end of it was not quite so sudden, but quick.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
Pure joy and love
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Not exactly... except for the certain knowledge that there is an existence after death.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I was driving a car at 65 mph and it was the last thing I expected to happen! It was one of the most amazing experiences I have ever had, felt more real than almost anything in my life ever has, and I have no other explanation for why I would be so wracked with sadness and grief one instant and it be totally and permanently gone the next. I believe it was a gift from her to me. I also had completely lost my faith, and had lost it for 14 years, and after this experience it slowly returned over the next few years.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Overwhelming love, joy and warmth
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
As I stated before. ..my sadness, pain and grief over her death was gone in an instant.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was feeling my Granny so close to me again, and knowing that she wasn't gone... and feeling her love so strongly and completely. I guess the worst part was when she left... but even that wasn't bad. It didn't feel like a permanent separation... only temporary.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Describe: I am much more at peace with myself.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes my faith returned after a 14 year absence, and I have no doubts of an existence beyond this life.
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes I know without a doubt now that there is an existence after this life, and I know that she will be there for me when my turn comes. There is no doubt. I also had/have a renewed faith in a higher being.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Amazement and a bit of shock
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
As I stated before, I know without a doubt now that there is an existence after this life.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes I have only told very few people that I was particularly close to, and their response was positive. They seemed to share and understand my belief and feelings about the experience.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? Just that no words can really convey the FEELINGS that I experienced... or how euphoric the experience made me feel. There are no words to express just how AMAZING it was!
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. No