I rarely fall straight to sleep. Sleeping is always a challenge. It takes allot of work for me to fall asleep and remain sleeping. This has been going on for six years. I do meditation, Iight candles, yoga, I even burn moxa (moxibustion- chinese herb)  on a really bad night.

     The night of my experience I would call a good night. I did a five minute meditation on a good night sleep and then got into bed. I still can't believe it but I fell straight to sleep.

That was 12:00 am.

    What seemed like a minute later was actually two hours (2: 07 am )  I awoke with the feeling that someone was standing over me. When I opened my eyes I expected to see my husband maybe chasing the dog out of the room. Instead I saw a giant dark figure at least seven feet tall. The shape of the body was like a very long tear drop. Round at the top then thinning down to the floor into a point. I could clearly see that it was not touching the floor. The head was round and almost separate to the body. It appeared to be looking about the room. Just scanning back and forth.

   I did the predictable blinking of my eyes attempting to focus, as I could not believe what I was seeing. It remained.  I want to express that at this point I did not feel fear, in fact I didn't feel anything but wonder. I nearly asked "Can I help you?" since the energy surrounding me seemed completely normal, but I continued to watch.

    Next the movement of ... "the wonder" changed. It bent around (difficult to describe) as though it had just discovered that I was there. Then came down, but more like bending down right in front of my face.

   The next thing I heard was a sound. Like a wailing sound, and through that sound I heard voices I know. My grandmothers voice came through saying "Don't be afraid" then I heard my father saying "She doesn't recognize me". All the while I can still hear this inhuman wailing voice, like the long cry of an animal at it's death.  Then my grandmother again said "Kari, you are doing the right thing." I am thinking to myself, "What is the right thing, what are you talking about?"

    I could see nothing, but the dark shadow in my face, it was as if the room had just faded away. Then the wailing stopped and the light from the bathroom reappeared and "my wonder" was gone.

   My husband was wide awake at this point and scared senseless. After the shock wore off  he told me his experience with me.

  He was sound asleep when he heard me begin to moan. Then the moan turned into what he described as a Banshee call,  a long drawn out cry from the throat, that never changed in tone but only grew louder and more disturbing. Over the sound of my cry he heard a loud chirping noise. He said " I thought I had awoke in some sort of bird sanctuary for the insane."

   I told him my story and he said reluctantly "You know what you saw wasn't real?" I said "No, I don't know that" then he replied "Neither do I, but I never want to hear that sound again."

   The only time I felt fear was when my husband explained things to me from his point of view. It was very frightening for him. For myself I have had allot of stomach trouble the last few days and I am very tired but emotionally I am fine.

    I know what I saw, and heard. I am not a person that needs proof for everything. What I would like is a better understanding of the chirping sound that Adam heard and why I would cry out like that if I wasn't afraid.

    My sleeping trouble began six years ago after I was drugged and raped. This year I am making a film to tell my story in order to move on and hopefully help other women in the process. I believe that is what my grandmother was referring to when she said "You are doing the right thing."

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

Yes

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? 

The voice came through me is the only way I can describe it. Like an overtone.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?          

it was very similar, it was their voices.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?          

no.

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?  

no.

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           

No

Did you see the deceased?        

I am not sure if what I saw was actually my deceased father. Though I heard his voice say "She doesn't recognize me"

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Vanished.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       N/A

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       N/A

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            N/A

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?     

No

How long did the experience last?       

Over three minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

The beginning was gradual then it ended suddenly

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

Yes

The wonder that I saw seemed curious about me but harmless.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? 

I was told that I am doing the right thing. I assume that this refers to my life choices.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         

I know that it was real because of my husbands description of the bird sounds. My guess  is that this was him hearing the communication though somehow encoded.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  

No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

I just wanted to know what it all meant. It was curiosity that I felt.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Yes

I feel a certainty about myself that I didn't have before.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

Hearing my grandmother I love her so much.

The worst part, probably the confusion.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?        

No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I no longer feel uncertain about myself.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           

A bit of shock. Mostly after what my husband told me. I felt shock that he had experienced something too.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          

Yes

My husband heard many things as I was witnessing the vision. A woman's voice that he thought was me at first followed by another voice that was male. It is best described in detail.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    

Uncertain

It could be described that way, the room just faded away.

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?           

Yes  See above.

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Most of them say that they would have been scared.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  

No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?        

No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?              

Uncertain  It is hard to put it into words.