Experience description:
August 10, 1997 I was
driving to Mom's house after I got the call that my grandmother had died. We
expected her death to come soon and it wasn't a shock. I was very close to her
and I was very very sad and upset. I remember I had told her years before to
please come back to "haunt" me after she died because I wanted to know she was
still with me and okay. She always said she would if she could. She knew I
wasn't joking.
She became very ill in
the summer of 97 but she refused to see the doctor anymore. We assumed it was
her colon as she'd had polyps removed before. She didn't want any treatment and
she was ready to pass on and see her sister who passed away years before. So we
kept her home and took care of her until she passed away. It was very hard for
me- she was like a mom to me and we were very close.
As I was driving I got
a vision in my mind- I didn't see it with my eyes but with my mind and it was as
real as if I saw it with my physical eyes. The vision was of my Grandmother and
I could see her from her head to her waist. She was lit up with the brightest
light I'd ever "seen" and she had the most peaceful smile and look on her face.
She didn't speak to me, I didn't hear her voice but she sent me the thought,
"I'm okay now. I'm happy here and please don't be sad for me." I could hear her
thoughts as plain as anything. It was instant, as if time stood still but it
seemed to last only seconds and the vision faded. It made me happy to know she
was happy and I knew she had kept her promise to "haunt" me after she died.
Was the
experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain Yes because
it was within the scope of the spirit/soul, but also no because it was a very
simple message. I've had several good ADC's from her but I will start with the
first one she sent me just hours after she died.
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
She
sent me thoughts that she was happy and okay and not to be sad for her. I heard
no voice, only her thoughts transmitting to my mind.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside
you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated?
It was all thoughts. I
understood as clearly, or more clearly than if words were used. I can't really
explain if it was external or internal, it just WAS. I knew what she was saying
to me.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or
sound the deceased made when they were alive? Thoughts only.
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No.
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
NO
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the deceased?
Yes
From
head to waist, surrounded with bright light, she was very happy and peaceful.
She looked the same as when she was alive (89) but she was glowing.
How clearly did the deceased appear?
Solid, in my mind's vision.
How much of the deceased did you see?
Head
to waist.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
Age
at death- 89.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be?
Very
healthy. No sick or ill. Very vibrant and alive.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No.
Did
you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the
deceased?
No
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
Very
happy, peaceful and alive.
Did
the deceased give you information you did not previously know?
No,
just that she was happy and for me not to be sad.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:
The
vision appeared suddenly in my mind, I could see her as plain as the road I was
staring at while I was driving on the highway. The vision seemed more real to me
than the highway. I remember how she glowed with light all around her and her
smile. She was definitely happy and at peace.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
Just
to know she was okay and happy. I still grieved for months after because I
missed the physical part of her but I knew she was happy and very much alive.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
Best
part was that I saw my Grams happy and peaceful and she told me not to be sad
for her. She was okay. Worst part was that she had to die so I could have the
experience.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
Just
knowing she was happy and at peace made me feel happy for her. Nothing really
changed for me because I had always been a believer and had experiences since I
was little.
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Uncertain I have always believed in the afterlife, not in the religious sense
but in a sense of KNOWING it's real.
Did
the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death,
afterlife, God, etc.?
Yes It was the first spiritual experience I had with a close family member.
So it was special in that way. And knowing that she really was happy and well
gave me peace. I knew she was still alive but just in another space.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Was
the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain
Time
seemed not to pass or just stand still. yet it lasted seconds and it was gone. I
wasn't distracted from my driving in anyway.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes
Had
these since childhood. But I guess because we were so close that maybe my senses
were heightened after the experience and I was more aware of signs she may send
me to let me know she was okay.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
I
was driving and focused on the road. The vision lasted seconds, if that long. It
didn't disrupt my driving yet I felt that I had somehow seen something or
experienced something that was not a "normal" part of everyday life. And because
of that I felt that maybe I had some type of separation of consciousness.
Did
you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes
I
saw her surrounded by a very bright light, she lit up all around her head and
torso. Again this was in my mind, not through my eyes but just a real.
Did
any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location
described above?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes
Interested, intrigued, awed. Don't know if they were influenced.
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher
or web site?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?
No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect
the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or
other spiritual event?
Yes
Dreams, NDE-like dream, sensations (knowing things), feeling things...other ADC
from deceased loved ones,
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes